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Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Here is WHAT has been up in my world. My weight. I feel like completely starting a new sparkpage, but I do not want to lose my current Spark friends. I did not completely gain all my weight back, but I was close. (20 pounds)

Some peeps over on my Fb page when I told them I had trouble letting go of the past, told me to start over with my weight on October 1st. So I am now on my 21 day streak on myfitnesspal and I've lost 13 pounds since then. Pretty happy with that. Ready to do this again and keep it off for good.

SW : 337
CW : 324




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  • AUNTIELES53
    I get what you mean i am back on sp after being gone forever and i am right where i left off... chin up pretty lady you got this :)
    1757 days ago
  • PLUSSIZEWIFE
    This journey is tough but we are all in it together. We are here to give encouragement and support. It's not about how many times we fall down but how many times we pick ourselves back up. You got this!
    1760 days ago
  • JANET552
    Been there too!! Good for you for finding a way to get back on track!! As long as you keep doing that, you are succeeding!
    1761 days ago
  • KAREN2LOSE55
    Just go forward from here. You've started again and that's the hardest part. You've gotten a handle on how to do it and you'll be doing it every day. We're all right behind you, helping you to push on, and the rest of us have someone behind us, helping each one of us to push on. I've gained some back too. We're in this together! emoticon emoticon emoticon on those 13#!!!! emoticon
    1761 days ago
  • BETHSLOGIC
    I will follow you if you switch over to a new SP pages :-)
    1763 days ago
  • NETGYRL
    I am sooooo happy to see you again!! Woohoo!!! *happy dance* Please don't feel embarrassed . I gained all my weight back but 20 lbs too. It SUCKED. You are right - you need to let it go and restart. I toyed with the idea of nuking my page and starting over, but in the end I just took it up again where I left off. This is life. This is the journey. The good, the bad and the ugly. The triumphs and the tragedies make us who we are. Coming back and saying "hey, this is hard for me, but this is where I am at and I'm starting over" is huge. You are a strong and brave woman. We understand because we have all been there. We are all here for you to cheer you on ... and vice versa, right?

    I can't tell you how thrilled I am to see you back. You can totally do this. You have done it before. Use your past success to motivate you! Time to kick some ass! Booyah!
    1763 days ago
  • MANLEYSANDY
    Never be embarrassed to be who you are. You have to love and accept yourself, for who you are, right here and now. You are good enough right now!! Never forget that.

    We, and I am so guilty of this, never live in this moment, we live in the past, by holding on to things that do us no good or we live in the future, where we think things are going to be better if, we, lose weight, get a better job, get a boyfriend, the list goes on but we are good enough right now, all those things won't change who we are inside. You are a wonderful person, mother, wife, the list goes one. so losing the weight will just make you healthy, but you are still the same wonderful person inside and have nothing to be embarrassed about because you are trying, right here and now!

    Keep on fighting!!
    1763 days ago
  • BRENDABUNNY
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    1763 days ago
  • CARRILU
    You're here, that's all that matters. It's all part of the journey friend. SO happy to see you and you are already a success, you know how to do this. Don't be embarrassed! It's a process and there isn't anything good or bad about the process it's a journey with twists and dips.
    1763 days ago
  • SAPHRAEL
    I'm glad you didn't create a new Sparkpage.
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    1764 days ago
  • TIME4AMY
    Right here with ya babes!!

    I totally understand the embarrassment, especially after being admired for my strength. I also felt so angry with myself for allowing it to happen. After all, I am the one who can change that.

    I had to look at it all in a different light. I learned so much during the journey, when I originally lost 75...that I feel I'm ahead of the game this time around. I know so many tools to help myself through. I know what worked for me and what didn't. I have never looked back at any time in my life, where I didn't appreciate what I was able to take from it all. It is often during the struggle that we don't see what possibly could be the reason for the bump in the road. I just know that I am stronger than I was long ago.

    I remember losing and losing, but always feeling like I had more to go. I never sat long enough in the moment to be proud of how far I'd come. No matter how much I lost...I felt FAT! I had to wonder if the set back was a way of allowing me to remember where I didn't want to be. I had forgotten how difficult it was to carry this weight, carry this burden. It weighed me down so much in so many ways! I do know, however, that it took stepping into those shoes again to appreciate the little I take off here and there. Any step I take that moves toward a healthier me I need to be proud of. Every pound that I lose I need to celebrate!!

    I'm different this time around for sure. I don't obsess over every calorie, although I do track them all and try to stay within my range. If I do happen to cheat a bit, are closer to the end of my range than I'd like to be, go over a little, etc. I get back to work the next day and move on. That is so important... ALWAYS MOVING FORWARD!!!

    You've taken good care of yourself in the past and have proven that it is hard, but worth it!! Stay positive, my friend. You got this!!! emoticon
    1764 days ago
  • HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE
    What do they say? Fall down 7 times, get up 8? That's all it is. You fell, you got back up, THAT's something to be proud of. I've gained too, but I'm going to keep fighting and you are too! You've got this girl! *HUGS*
    1764 days ago
  • JUNESHOPE
    YOU GOT THIS! Keep up the good work.
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    1764 days ago
  • -AIMIE-
    So many people can relate to how you feel and what you are going through. I know I can! I am about 10-15 pounds higher than my "last" highest weight and I keep telling myself that if I was doing well before and making good choices then I should be able to now but it just doesn't work that way. It's hard!!!! I just wanted you to know that it takes courage to come back and I am proud of you. I am cheering you on and starting over right alongside you! emoticon
    1764 days ago
  • BBORDEN86
    I debated about keeping mine or starting a new one. Honestly I didn't want to take the time to do it. You can update your goals without starting a new page so I just did that. Looking back at the smaller photos of me kind of motivated me to get going again. It's a struggle for me too. I gained all my weight back plus an additional 20. Keep doing what you're doing and we can do this together! :)
    1764 days ago
  • SASSYRUNNERGURL
    Keep up the great work Michelle! You can do it! you have the tools! You are amazing! Fresh starts are the best starts!
    1764 days ago
  • WINNIE1978
    I'm in the same boat. Starting over is tough... but we can do it!
    1764 days ago
  • ARUNNINGKAT
    I am so glad you kept your old Spark page! This journey is certainly not a straight line by any stretch of the imagination. You have conquored it before and I have no doubt you will do it again! emoticon
    1764 days ago
  • BARBARAROSE54
    emoticon I have done the same thing, gaining weight is the simple thing, losing weight takes a lot of work and commitment and I know you can do it !
    1765 days ago
  • MENNOLY
    You have done it once and you can do it again. I too gained a lot of weight over the last year and a half. I have decided I lost my weight too fast the first time and am planning on losing much more slowly this time. My goal is to lose no more than 15% of my current weight by next September. If I can do that I will try to lose 10% the following year and then see how I feel. Good Luck!
    1765 days ago
  • DAWNESS0404
    I restarted in the middle of August after gaining almost all my weight back. I am down 18 pounds and still have a lot to go! Good luck on your new start!
    1765 days ago
  • TEAMMEEM
    I have been embarrassed by my progress since I started my 2nd spark page 3 weeks ago. Lost a pound then gained it back but I'm trying harder this week. Good luck, sounds like you are doing great!
    1765 days ago
  • MIMOTOGO
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    1765 days ago
  • GETHEALTHY83
    I'm restarting myself. I unlike you have deleted several of my SP pages and rejoin and I'm embarrassed because I feel like a failure but honestly I'm still TRYING even if I'm not doing that great. I just need to keep trying! Best of luck to you!!!
    1765 days ago
  • UKNOWITNOW
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    1765 days ago
  • MOMMA-MOOSE
    Absolutely! We can't change the past, so we have to let go. A fresh start can be wonderful.
    1765 days ago
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