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Trying to get back on track.

Friday, October 17, 2014

So, I have been trying to get back on track. I have gained back more weight. I'm only 8lbs away from my highest weight. Eeek.
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I'm kind of ashamed of gaining the weight back. I'm pretty ashamed that my pants are tight around the waist again. I'm ashamed that I keep failing at this.
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Are there any SP folks out there who have been on here for 3+ years and have been trying-failing-trying-failing-
trying-failing-and then still trying some more?

I'm well aware that this is better than trying-failing-giving up, and that many define failing as the cessation of trying, but that doesn't change the fact that I've not been meeting these goals on even a small scale. I can meet other goals. I can make other deadlines. But this.... this is hard... really hard.

*sigh*
I need to exercise. I need to eat better. I need to stop beating my self up in my own head.

I have reset my goals on SP and put in my updated weight.

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  • IMAQUALITARIAN
    You can certainly count me on your team. I kept my weight off for a year and a half, started gaining a little, but instead of talking it seriously, I kept pushing it out if my mind. That's easy to do when life is packed full. The last six months months I have gained an unbelievable amount of weight! I'm disgusted and embarrassed, but like you, no quitter! We will do this AGAIN. This time I will put as much energy into maintenance as I do into losing.
    2360 days ago
  • NORAB52GOOD
    I have been on here since 2008. I lost and then plateaued and then gained. I have stopped weighing myself. I don't track my food or even try to limit what I eat. I exercise sometimes but nothing like the amount I used to do. I think I am in the giving up phase. I keep thinking about doing something more but I never quite get there. You are not alone. Give yourself credit for trying. Don't give up. emoticon
    2412 days ago
  • RYDERB
    emoticon I've been on this weight loss/healthy lifestyle roller coaster ride with you the entire time. I'm not sure if it's ever going to get easier, but I know if we focus on making the healthiest choices we can, and keep taking it one day at a time, we will eventually get this DONE. emoticon emoticon
    2417 days ago
  • JLPEASE
    I''m one of those up and down people. It seems like every time I lose weight, I end up weighing more than I started. It makes it hard to start again, because I'm afraid I'll just keep gaining weight!

    One thing I am doing this time, in addition to resetting all of my counters, is I'm trying some self-hypnosis stuff that my husband found. They're about being mindful, not necessary just about eating, but about everything. We've been doing those for a few weeks now, and I really feel a difference in the way I feel. I am losing weight s-l-o-w-l-y, but pretty consistently. I'm also feeling very positive and it really helps that my husband is doing them with me. He does NOT have a weight problem, but he has other issues he's dealing with.

    Of course, I have a LOT more to go, but I really feel better about things now and I'm able to be more intentional in what I eat instead of mindlessly eating all the time.

    Here's hoping, but I have to have some optimism or I would just give up.

    2421 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5707126
    I have been here for 5 years and have lost and gained. Many health issues have happened and I now have Gastroparesis. I still have not lost with the GP but I am one of those who have been in starvation mode that it is so hard to lose. I know that your job requires so much time and energy that it hard to lose.
    I hope that you can find something that will be fun and provide some calorie burn. Best wishes on your new position and I know you can do this too!
    2429 days ago
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