Friday, October 17, 2014
I'm part of a team now
Go Grey Wolves!
But I am doing NOTHING to help them.
I gained a pound. Not lost a pound. And Ryan is all kinds of pissed off at me.
I do this. Every time. I thought that with all the Sparking I've done, it'd be different.
EVERY TIME I get close to ONEderland, I screw myself over.
Like I've said in another blog post, I've lost the same bajillion pounds, over and over again.
It's not like I WANT to weigh over 200 pounds....
I have psycho-analyzed myself to here and back. I have dispensed advice like I'm a PEZ of weight-loss knowledge.
So I can tell you-
I didn't drink enough water
I didn't get enough steps/ aerobic in
I ate better than last week, but not better enough
What is IT . about 199 that scares me so??
I WANT IT. I want it so bad, it tastes like....
Lasagna. Seriously, I think it's THAT good.
But I STILL f*ck up.
I'm so mad. at myself. and disappointed.
really, really disappointed.