Deep in Thought
Wednesday, October 08, 2014
..so I decided to take some time to myself tonight after supper to sit and think. I do this why "watching" tv.. But in the middle of my thinking, I actually started watching the show.. and wow, it was kinda spot on for what I was thinking about.
I feel like so much is happening around me and I'm trying to keep up but at the same time I'm stuck in the mud sinking sinking sinking. There's these thoughts I' shouldn't have.. if anyone knew what they were, I'd never hear the end of it. If anyone truly stayed inside my head for more than 10 seconds they'd probably die from shock at what they see and hear in there lol.
Anyways. Feeling really down tonight. Sometimes I wish I still had my meds. But at the same time I've always wanted to learn to live without them.. but honestly.. its so hard! Prayers please and thanks.