Today was a great day for me!
I did get up kinda late but I am getting used to just going with the flow of things, not letting things get to me, and just trying to change what bothers me, or things I don’t like at a pace less stressful.
So, I still got to the gym… and once again, Travis went with, that is every day since we have started, every day that I have made it, with the exception of when I was sick last week. He has been having trouble getting up in the mornings, like he usually does, but he is not fighting me on going to the gym… this is SO not his normal behavior!
So I got in a great 75 minute workout in the Extreme Room of my gym… I TOTALLY love that room! Rowing machine, big medicine balls, dumbbell, kettlebell, and the big ropes were all a part of my workout today! I pushed hard and it felt great!
After I finished my workout, my hubby wanted to take a selfie of us:
I called it, “dying at the gym” LOL! It’s how I felt at that exact moment, but after getting home and relaxing a bit, I could tell my metabolism was roaring and I felt great!
I also felt really good about this picture today, first of all, my husband NEVER takes pictures with me. Then he put it on his phone desktop... hmmm, someone call x-files, I think my real husband was switched with this really sweet and sensitive guy! LOL!!
So, I have been going back and reading some of my own (old) blogs to get more of a feel of where I was 3 years ago when I lost 180 lbs. The time when I was on top of the world. I am trying to allow that “me,” of that time to motivate and inspire the “me” now, to work hard and get off the other half of this weight.
Bring it home you might say...
The blog I bumped into today I found something quite ironic… have a read:
NOTE: that day was my birthday, I just noticed that...
Now I am not saying he has not brought me down like that in the last 3 years, because fact is, he has. But lately he is different. Not sure if it is because our 10 yr anniversary is coming up, or if it is because he has gained weight and is now all of a sudden concerned about his own weight, or what.
Lately things have changed, and it has defiantly been for the better, I am proud to say!
The irony of it all is his weight gain… back then he spout off about how he would always be a 28-30 waist and he can eat anything he wants, and so on and so on…
TODAY he was reading the pop-tart box...
...ok, I find that totally hilarious, honestly...
...and asking me if it was good for him to eat. Don't think I am mean or rude, and definitely not mocking his now current issue of gaining weight and not being able to fit into his clothes...
I - am - just - amused...
~~Come on I have the right to be amused, I have been trying for 10 years to cook healthy for the whole family; for me due to my weight, for him because he lost his mother at 37 to heart failure and his dad who has had at least one heart attack, although he won't admit to it... for his dad because he is aging and spite his pretending, I know he is not healthy, and lastly, (and most important of all), for my son, who I REALLY want to grow up with good eating habits.
I warned him that even though he "can eat anything without gaining weight" that it would catch up with him once he hit a certain age... he didn't listen, and to make it worse; I was laughed at, ridiculed and treated like crap because of my weight, my attempt to improve it, my workouts, and my cooking by his father while he sat back and said nothing to defend me or did anything to support me in the least, he would even go out of his way to hinder my attempts... so do I have the right to be amused... heck yea!!!~~
Reading a pop-tart box... As I type this I am laughing because it is so funny to me, after all these years, I have finally rubbed off on him. I might find it amusing, but truth is, I will help him lose the bit of weight he needs to, I am showing him how to workout at the gym in a way to amp up his metabolism and build muscle... imagine that, him allowing me to teach him!
He settled on some sliced pepperoni and whole wheat crackers for snack this evening… nice choice… complex carbs and protein, way to go hon!
So, even though the irony and amusement, I am finding a new man in my husband, maybe he just needed to grow up a bit... ok a lot! Fact is, I like this person he is, I like him more and more each day, and doing this together is not only giving me the emotional support I have always needed but never had in my own house, but also we are finding each other in a way we never have before.
...and me, well I am still pushing forward, feeling better and better everyday and in the end looking forward to a better life all around, and I CAN'T WAIT to meet the new slimmer me!