This year our high school is having a combined reunion for the classes of '64 & '65.
I have been reluctant to sign up for this. The last time I went it cost $50. This time, the cost is $75. Yes, money is a concern, but most all of you on this site probably know what my main concern is.
For the last reunion, I was just starting to have health problems. I was having a little problem with my legs, but not much back then. And of course, my weight was not an issue. I was still working and I wore dresses all of the time. If my weight was what it was back then, I wouldn't be concerned about going to this event.
I want to go, but I think that I am concerned about what those old classmates will think of me.
My best friend will not be going with me....... she is still in a nursing home after her heart problems and stroke. This saddens me for more reasons than I can mention.
I do have another casual friend that I keep in touch with and she has agreed to go, if I will go.
Then the weight factor jumps back at me.
O.K., I realize that none of us are young anymore and probably a lot of us have gained weight....... but, they are not me.
A couple of days back, I went out to get my morning newspaper. I have a glass storm door in front of my front door. I looked up and saw my reflection. I never saw my face, only my wide hips. When I did, I thought..... Why am I so worried about what other people are thinking? I should not be worrying what they think. I am not trying to date the guys or impress the girls. They will accept me or not. If they don't, they will miss something really good..... me
I will probably go, but those insecure feelings will still be with me.
I am hoping that I can avoid talking about my health and just talk about old times and all of the good things.
Wish me luck, I know I will need it.
P.S. I forgot one of the most important things...... I won't be able to dance