Eating and the Fat Girl
Thursday, September 18, 2014
First, I want to thank everyone for their kind words. It's been weird being back here with very little to show for it, but I'm trying hard to keep shame from making me slink away again.
The biggest thing, I guess, is that in the space of time from the last time I was a member here and now is that I am incredibly active. I know. Hard to believe that I can be 230lbs, but still burn around 500 calories a day. Not having a car will do that to you. I'm glad I walk around four miles a day. Really. Even if my feet hurt a lot of the time.
I guess what has bothered me the most about it is that no matter how much I have moved my weight has stayed the same. It's remarkably frustrating to know that during any given week I'm walking around twenty miles and yet... nothing.
What never occurred to me is that maybe, just maybe, I'm not eating enough. The last couple of days have been a bit of an eating fluke. My husband has been running errands near my office around lunch both days which has lead to us eating out. We don't do that often. This made me go track what I'd normally be eating tomorrow (and what is on the meal plan for the day) just to see where we are.
Even with a snack (which I tend to have while I do homework) I am only at 1266 calories. Subtract the low estimate of 400 calories burned from my walking commute tomorrow and that puts me at a very low 866 calories.
No wonder I'm tired all the time. I might throw some ice cream in there too, but I'm still waaaay too low. I guess it's a good thing I came back. If for no other reason than I can eat enough to get my metabolism going again. No more being a starving fat girl.