Nemetzc: Who is that?
Saturday, September 13, 2014
While the title of my blog started as a status update to poke fun at myself for disappearing from the site for five months, it also made me actually try to answer the question.
I am Christina; girlfriend to Kevin, friend to Wendy, sister to Amy, daughter to Jeff and Lois, and coworker to many.
How many ways do I change myself to interact with each of these different social groups? How much of myself do I feel the need to hide/play down? How much do I wish I could change myself? Why do I feel the need to play parts to different people? (not that I believe myself to ever be untruthful about myself- I just seem to act certain ways around certain people)
I feel as though I'm stuck in a rut lately. I work evenings, coming home around 11 or 12, don't sleep until near 2, then don't wake up until 11, having to leave again at 1. It seems that all I do is work during this weekly cycle.
While I was living with Wendy, I would stop by Planet Fitness directly after work, but now that I have been moving in with Kevin these last few weeks, I haven't done any exercise at all.
I need to find time to do something that I enjoy, something good for myself, but when? The weekends have been filled with moving, unpacking, sorting, and trying to spend some time with Kevin.
I'm not unhappy. I'm not happy. I just am... But I don't really know who I am.
I am going to focus on myself, not necessarily fitness, or nutrition, but general wellness. I want to rediscover myself.