So, I think the saying goes like this:
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results.
It's official... I am insane.
I have been overweight for 30 years. I know when it started and why. I knew, even then, how to stop it and how to fix it. I can probably list what I was going through each time I had a significant weight gain. I could tell you about each time I decided "this is it, time to lose the weight"! And I could tell you about how I started strong and then fizzled out. But telling you wouldn't change anything, and in reality, I don't think it would help my motivation at all.
Fast forward to July of 2006. My scale said that I weighed 245. I knew it was time for a change. A friend told me about sparkpeople and after checking it out, I joined. I used all of the tools and lost 46 pounds. I kept that weight of for a few years. And then I got back on that ugly weight loss roller coaster... I gained some, I lost some. I gained more, and lost some. I gained more... Ok, you get the picture, and its not pretty picture. During the past eight years, several times I have come back to sparkpeople. When I use the tools I do well. Then I do well for a while longer. Then the roller coaster changes directions. I wonder, why didn't I just get off of the ride? I don't even like roller coasters!!!
Today that changes. I am going to update my spark page and set some new goals. This time I am going to make some permanent life changes. I am going to take control of my life and my health. This morning when I woke up, I weighed in at 239. Dangerously close to my heaviest weight. I can't do this any more. About 5 years ago I went to the doctor and had a complete check up with all of the tests that doctors like to run. My doctor was kind and supportive. He agreed with me that it would be good if I lost some weight. All of the blood tests they run (cholesterol, triglycerides, A1C, blood pressure, etc) all came back ok. A little high, but not enough to need medicine. I was determined to lose weight and eat healthier so that I could go back in a year and wow the doctor with my improved numbers... and I haven't gone back, because I am afraid of what he will say. I know that is not only stupid, but dangerous. I found my motivation.
So now, I am going to focus on a different saying: "Today is the first day of the rest of my life". And I want to be around to enjoy it! My song is going to be: "My Next 30 Years"! My spark name is changeisgood. It came from knowing that I needed some changes in my life. I still do. It still fits. And the change starts today!
Hello to my future!