Saturday, September 06, 2014
I have a daughter that I love. She is on a journey to completely self destruct and it is painful to see. She is back in the hospital again, resulting from her self destructing habit. She was there a little over a month ago and nearly died. I thought surely this is the rock bottom that will change her. Nope she went back to self destructive behavior and has again ended up in hospital. It nearly killed her again. When sitting with her and listening I know that things will not change for her. It brings a tremendous amount of sadness to my heart for her. We have been on this journey with her since 2008. I realize she will not make it to see 50. I have struggled with not letting her destructive behavior throw me into a whirlwind of depression. We are raising her two boys and we have worked hard to keep them healthy and happy. Life is an interesting journey.