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Caught in the "all or nothing" game, and lost

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

So I'm back! emoticon I just couldn't stay away.

A few weeks ago I was overwhelmed by changes in my life, I allowed frustration and resentment to influence my decisions. emoticon In case you don't already know this...that is NOT a good position to make decisions from!

Oh I didn't think I was giving up all no, emoticon I was just easing my burden by eliminating the time it takes to check e-mail, track nutrition and activity, and respond to posts from you. I was just relinquishing my claim on the internet to avoid bickering with my husband over who was entitled to the band width. Yeah right! I GAVE UP! emoticon Each day I did a little less, I ate a little more, I became more despondent. emoticon

In two weeks I have gained back all of the weight I lost in the previous 3 months.

I shut off your support and encouragement when I really needed it the most. emoticon I didn't realize how powerful daily affirmations were until I didn't have them anymore. By not accessing your words of wisdom and encouragement each day I allowed the voices of negativity and pessimism to infiltrate my way of thinking.

Well, this is a new day. emoticon A new week. A new month. emoticon A new season. emoticon A new start for me. I don't have to do it all, I don't have to do it perfectly, but I plan to take steps in the right direction every chance I get. So you may not see me posting much on the boards, but I will be back on the activity feeds.

I have to take a moment to reinforce the use of the trackers. I know it takes time, and sometimes it can be a drag (especially if you haven't made very good choices for the day) but it is SO POWERFUL emoticon Knowing where you are on the calorie in/calorie out spectrum makes a huge difference for me. Being accountable to the numbers at the end of the day subtly influences each decision I make.

Today I spent the day "cleaning". I cleaned my house, my fridge, my office, my mind, and my spirit. I have not done a physical "work out" today, but I have been working my mind, setting my goals, and making my plans.

An old boss of mine was fond of saying that to be successful we need to "plan our work and work out plan". He was, and is, so very right!

Today my food choices were better then they have been in weeks, my attitude has improved, and my mind set is more positive. emoticon

I will take some time to update my profile and my goals, and tomorrow I will eat a little healthier then I did today, and I will move a little more...and the next day I will do a little more then that. emoticon

Stick with me gang. This is a marathon, not a sprint. Little slips are normal and to be expected. The key is getting back on the ride.

Giddy UP!
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  • no profile photo CD14803649

    SP can be overwhelming which makes this difficult journey even more so. that was never it's intention. take from SP what you need...and don't sweat the rest. main goal is YOU and YOUR health. emoticon
    2463 days ago
    Great to have you back!
    Keep in touch to stay on track!
    2503 days ago
    I hear ya on how fast it is to gain the weight back after we work so hard to loose it..I too am just coming back from the downward spiral.. Here's to success on the Shooting Star team!
    2508 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9065446
    SO GLAD to see you back emoticon . I sure hope you join the Fall 5% Challenge. I have not been very dedicated in the past couple weeks myself, and I've gained back several pounds, too. I know we can get back on track - your thought patterns sound so very like mine, let's figure out how to get them moving in the right direction - PERMANENTLY! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2520 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13966076
    Welcome back!.....
    2521 days ago
  • BLUEJAY1969
    So glad you are back! Hope you get the time to blog occasionally as I enjoy reading them! I know you can do this!
    2522 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    have a nice day
    2522 days ago
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