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Am I Losing My Mind???

Thursday, August 28, 2014

I woke up this morning wanting to eat and take care of my baby because my baby has come back to me. I swear I'm feeling movement. Then I go to the bathroom and relive the horrible sounds of the miscarriage and remember I don't have my baby anymore. Then next time I feel movement, I swear my baby is back.

Am I losing my mind? Am I crazy? I even took a pregnancy test to prove it. There was a faint positive.

My husband and mother keep swearing they are going to take me back to the hospital. Even my doctor is offering to put me on psych meds. Maybe I am crazy.
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    No you aren't crazy you are just a grieving mother who lost a child and I know that hurts. My husband and I before giving birth to my first child had a miscarriage however that's how we found out that we were pregnant. Just because we didn't know that we were pregnant doesn't mean that it didn't hurt any less. That moment that you find out that you were pregnant and that it's taken away from you and you don't get the chance to make your own decisions and you will never get to know that child it takes a piece of you with it when losing a child at any stage. When we lost our pregnancy they say it can take time for your hormone level to go down and your body to go back to normal and that's' why they say to wait 6 months before trying again. Like I said you aren't crazy I know because even though it was 8-9 years ago I still grieve from time to time. When I watch shows that have women that experience a miscarriage I find myself crying and having a hard time dealing with it even this long after and having two beautiful children. That hurt and pain never truly goes away and especially if you have had this happen to you more then once. I am sorry for your loss and know how you feel. Please don't let anyone tell you how you should feel, deal, or process this loss. I was lucky and had and have a supportive husband who let me deal with and process our loss in my own way and time and that's how I can tell you that what you are feeling is normal and ok.
    2278 days ago
  • BLH507
    I lost 2 babies and went through a horrible post partum depression after the second. I don't know if you had any post partum with your others but I was told that it gets worse with each pregnancy, which was true for me. Pregnancy hormones are pregnancy hormones whether there is a baby or not. Please go talk to your Dr about how you are feeling. You can get help. I still miss our lost "middle" child. I had my daughter after but still suffered heavy post partum depression.
    2488 days ago
    So sorry for your lost. You don't sound crazy to me, you just sound like you've had a horrible experience and are adjusting after it.
    2488 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. I understand your pain. I too experienced a loss of a child many years ago. I relive it frequently. I pray you make peace with your pain and find a way to move on. Not forget, just go forward. Hugs to you my friend.
    2488 days ago
    When I had my 3rd miscarriage I hadn't even taken a pregnancy test. They told me that if I had taken a pregnancy test it would have been positive because the hormones aren't completely gone from your body. You're not crazy, just stressed. ((Hugs))
    2488 days ago
    So sorry for your loss; You should rely on the people who love you and see you every day in the real world right now; You have been through a terrible ordeal and beyond the emotional toil you also have a chemical and hormonal response affecting you. Now is not the time to rely on the internet, even SP; rely on your doctor and your mom and your husband; take their loving concern seriously and take the time and support you need to be well for yourself and your family.
    2488 days ago
    Oh I'm so sorry for your loss.
    2488 days ago
    I don't think so.....I think you lost something that was very dear to you and the desire to have the baby back is very strong. When I lost my mom & my brother I would dream dreams and wake up thinking they were there. So I think you have to allow your mind body & soul time to grieve this loss in your heart. It's a process and meds may help with some of the grieving but you still need time to adjust.

    God bless & be encouraged!

    2489 days ago
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