Oh, I really need to get over myself!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
So that I shift my brain into the proper gear - I must remind myself I have lost almost 60 pounds. I am more than half way to my goal. NO reason to doubt that I will continue to succeed...but fighting the plateau blues.
This morning I am remembering the last time I was down around this weight (actually I was about 10 pounds heavier). This was about 4 years ago, and I had lost 40 pounds (20 of which came off due to a serious battle with salmonella...(I don't recommend it as a slimming strategy!)
I remember saying to a few people at the time, "I have always been big, but I am so glad I lost that 40 pounds...I feel so much better at this weight... I don't feel like my body is restricting me. This is the weight where I live." (that was about 220-225).
Perhaps it was just rationalization. Or perhaps I was just fatigued (salmonella will do that to you...) Or perhaps I was staring down another 40 pounds and thought... thanks, but no. I am fine here.
Fast forward to today...of course I feel better at this weight...
My back does not hurt
My knees do not hurt
I never get heartburn anymore
My skin is clearer
I have energy
I don't nap all weekend
I am consistently hydrated
My 8 year old daughter can wrap her arms ALL the way around me!
But I have no desire to stop here. I want to feel even BETTER. I deserve to achieve that next level. I know I just need to give my body time to adjust...to make sure it knows that we are heading toward a healthier NORMAL than I have ever experienced.
...Hang on. I just looked at my weight chart again. Its only been THREE WEEKS since I lost pounds. Oh, I really need to get over myself. Quit with the pressure, Erin... everything is FINE.