When does it all click?
Monday, August 18, 2014
This time around I've struggled.
I lost 50 pounds when I moved to Boston from my small little hilltown in Western Mass. Life was different then, although a very busy graduate student I walked to the T (subway) a mile to and from each day, walked all over the city, all over my large campus and had the opportunity to hire a personal trainer.
I moved back to Western Mass September 1st of 2013, and I've put on 15 pounds since then. Some of it from a knee dislocation, most of it from my drastically different lifestyle. I drive every I need to go and I don't have the stability and reinforcement of twice a week personal training. I know the foods I should be eating and those I should be staying away from, but pizza seems a lot easier to order when working my first career job then healthy meals. I know what I need to do, I know my goals but my motivation seems to waiver a lot more home than it did in a busy city.
When does it all click? I have seen quite a few people who have been successful in achieving a healthy lifestyle and it seems to just click for them. All of a sudden the nutrition and fitness Gods shine down on them. They work very hard to sustain this lifestyle, but they also seem to make it a priority. Want to hang out during their Zumba class? Sorry, they will take a rain check. Going out for dinner? They will have that Margarita but pair it with a salad. They just seem to get it and incorporate it into their lifestyle. It doesn't happen overnight but it is sustainable.
This is what I am striving for the most. I have had that lifestyle and that change within me before. But the comforts of home and old routines have crept back in. I have put myself and my health on the back burner. To be honest, other than my jean size changing I have been comfortable. I think a little part of me has given up too. The ghost of "I'll always be fat" past has reared it's ugly head. But comfortable hasn't been very exciting or challenging. I think it is time to push myself a little out of the comfort and become the people I envy.