So, if you've read my blog, you know my car was repossessed. So my husband went to get the car back and the jerk of a salesman tried to tell my husband that he was just going to have to take the credit hit. Till my husband started quoting GA law to him and the laws that this idiot had broken. So we paid off the car in full and got the title. Picked it up a few hours later. The car is all ours. And then it broke down. It's at the mechanics now. I was so deflated when my car started and immediately died. We just spent a ton of money getting it fixed and then finishing buying it!
Anxiety was my constant companion yesterday. Even when my friend came to visit. We had stopped school early because she said she'd be here at a certain time. An hour a half later she finally shows up, but by that time I'm ready to leave to go pick up the car. We still visited, but I was a little miffed that she came that late, her kids usually need naps by then and get cranky. I got over it. I'm ex-military, so I'm a stickler for being on time.
Any way, anxiety. Couldn't take my meds because they make me sleepy and I had driving to do. By the time we finally got home my anxiety was through the roof. And I ate. And ate. And ate. I didn't think about it, I just ate. Comfort food, like chicken pot pie. I'm so upset with myself. I had taken my medicine as soon as I got home, but, there you go. I'm not going to beat myself up, I had to deal with the anxiety some way and I could not go lay down at that point, so I ate. Not the right thing to do, but better than a full blown anxiety attack. And looking back, now I know what I need to do for next time. Since eating is a comfort I need to have a sucker or a piece of gum handy. Driving or no, I need to take my medicine earlier, even if I just take half a dose so I won't get sleepy. If I need to lay down, go do it. I can read to the kids in bed or something, just don't eat like that again!
Today I'm not going to have breakfast (except coffee). I'm going to have a shake for lunch with some fruit on the side and maybe a salad. For dinner I'll have leftovers. I got a new kind of cottage cheese and I really don't like it. So, till I can get back to the grocery store that is out as a snack. So snack will be pita chips and hummus or a snack bar and carrots and grapes or an orange.
I did not work out yesterday, too stressed, though honestly it probably would have helped. Today I am going to work out. How can I do 100 days of exercise if I don't work out?! I'm not getting onto myself too bad, yesterday was just one of those days. But today is not going to be (it is 4 AM, so hard to tell). I'm going to try to do two mini work outs of 15 minutes each on the elliptical, so I can get in a full 30 minutes. Today is a more intense day, so I may make that longer or 3 times. I'm loving the elliptical again. I'm so not wanting to do a workout DVD, don't know why, but I'd rather not. So elliptical it is. Once the park is finally finished we'll go do the mile walk again and see how that goes. I'll also get on the Wii Fit and see about some step aerobics on the riser.
I've not done Spark Coach yet, so no motivational picture today. Honestly it is so early that I may go back to bed after I finish this cup of coffee. I just couldn't sleep, but my first cup of coffee usually makes me sleepy.
I've got a lot to do today, I've still not made my to do list, mostly because it is going to be huge. We are rearranging the house and so it is in disarray. I don't like that. Our kitchen is small and cramped, so right now the counter is overflowing. I don't like my house being a mess. It helps me to feel better when it is neat and tidy. I'll never have magazine perfect, and frankly I'd rather have a house that looks lived in. But rearranging can be so messy! It's going to be great when it is done, that is what I keep telling myself!
Today I will:
Workout on the elliptical
Stick to my food plan
Work on getting my new laptop set up
Work on my To Do list
Drink my water
Take things slow and don't overdo it
As an aside, I'm so wanting to get organized!! I've been watching www.alejandra.tv/
and she is so awesome! I don't think my house could be as organized as hers it, but she has great ideas! I know, one project at a time, but in my down time from rearranging the house and getting the homeschool area finished, I am starting to organize as best I can! One of these days I want my house to be half as organized as hers is!