telephone poles and gopher holes
Monday, August 11, 2014
There is a telephone pole on Straight Circle Road. I know it's there. It has been for over 2 years now. But at least four times a week I run straight into it. Sometimes its just a grazing on my elbow, sometimes head on hard enough to cause a concussion. (To me. As far as I know, the pole has never been injured.)
There is a gopher hole at the bottom of my porch stairs. I know it's there. Every evening we fill it and every morning it's back. I can't recall how many times I have hit it and twisted an ankle.
What connects these two things? Me. Both are things I know about. But I still let them trip me up or knock me out. I go the same way but expect a different result. There are times that I am more mindful, and run into neither obstacle. And thats what both are, physical obstacles that represent my issues with changing. If I went down the other side of my stairway, I wouldn't fall over the gopher hole, and if I changed just one thing in my day it could get me out of whatever my current rut may be.
its difficult for me to change, especially with my autism. But there are only so many times I can run into telephone poles, too. Time for a change.