Sick and tired again .... but is it enough this time ?
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Just had to share. Diane blogs so much of what I want to say --- and can't seem to get out!
They say (you know THEY) that I can't change until "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired".
As I read the blog above I was, yet again, reminded of my Alcoholic friends. Most of AAers with long-term sobriety changed --- not just the drinking but their lives. Where they socialized, who they socialized with and how they celebrated.
I think it's coming down to the fact that I HAVE to change my life. I'm reminded by wise friends of not saying NEVER ... one day at a time. I like what _BABE_ said -- "working back one good habit at a time".
I'm also reminded that I have "wonderful" and "supportive friends here" .
I'm also reminded that in the past I would not only have gained --- I'd have been passed the point where I started. BUT --- (have you ever heard that everything after BUT doesn't matter) --- cliches Wednesday -- But, I'm saying it anyway, physically I think I feel worse than I've felt in a long time. I walked into work and was literally embarrassed walking in with a co-worker --- I was so out of breath I couldn't speak to him for several minutes.
I'm sick and I'm tired of carrying the weight. If the only way of getting better is changing how I celebrate and socialize so be it! I may have to brown bag it through life but is that the worse that could happen ??
AAers have another saying ..... GOING TO ANY LENGTH!