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I'm stuck in the past.....

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Does the negativity from others change the way you perceive yourself? Or are you strong enough to still be the person you are capable of being?

My maternal grandmother was a positive influence that made me WANT to "do my best in everything I did". She always told me "you can do anything you make up your mind to do". Although she has been gone 31-years, I hope to be half the person she was.

Then there were my parents ~ they spent a lifetime tearing apart my world. No matter what choices I made, how I succeeded or what I experience ~ it was never "good enough".

In fact, it took them 59-years to finally tell me that they were "proud of me" and it carried absolutely NO meaning!!

So, why am I SO stuck in the past??????

How do I get rid of that constant hum, in my mind, from the ghosts of negativity???

My past shouldn't control my future. I should be in control of my future......ME!!!

Perhaps the more I confront the negativity head on, the less it will be able to control me.

How appropriate....the radio is belting out...."What doesn't kill you makes you stronger..."
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  • JUST2OFUS
    Your parents were not very demonstrative people and when they finally did tell you at 59 that they were proud of you......they really, really, really meant it!

    You are a better person for your life experiences, some you could do without, but it did make you a better person. I am sure you tell everyone how proud of THEM you as soon as you feel that proudness. (don't know if that is even a word, but heck, it works).

    I am proud of you, very proud, you are a quilter extraordinaire! You are funny! You are a great researcher. Yes, I AM PROUD OF YOU!
    1449 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/27/2014 10:54:22 AM
  • DAWNWATERWOMAN
    Easier to say "let go of the past" than it is to actually do it. You're in my prayers friend. Hopefully focusing on Your positives will help.
    1449 days ago
  • GRAYGRANNY
    So sorry you are dealing with this my friend. I know the past bites me in the butt on occasion also. Wishing you the best in dealing with this......listen to Grandma....you sre sooo worth it!!
    1449 days ago
  • no profile photo WDIPIM
    It's hard. My Mom (who is still living) is not a nurturer and hates if I'm doing well. My Dad (who is deceased) was my strength and encourager. I have to struggle to remember he wanted me to be the best I could be and that I could do whatever I set my mind to. Good Luck. God Bless
    1449 days ago
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