Friday, July 25, 2014
I am in hades. Fire red burning, crazy itching psoriasis flare which has thrust me into a nightmare of pain is my fate. Again.
It can flare anytime, suddenly or slowly. The pain is unbearable and climbing. I am so desperate I'm even going to risk calling my pain doctor. Please pray she helps me.
If she won't I will be very close to wanting to die, suicide seems the only option. It's not what I want, I want to live, but the pain agony.
I'm so weary. I'm so weary of skin that burns, flares, itches to the point of fierce bone grinding pain. The doctors would beg me to take free drugs for pain if they for five minutes had to live with the pain I've endured these last four days. I doubt they could last for five minutes.
It hurts so bad. I'm one red mass of fire burning, inflamed, shedding, skin.
Yes, the dermatologist gave me scripts for meds to help. It will in time but it takes time. The meds from the dermatologist are strong steroids. Not much fun. Other options have not worked for me.
I've tried nearly everything. There is little hope. Clear it up this time and it's only a matter of time before the next flare for which they have no known cause or cure attacks me.
Just gotta hang on. Just gotta get thru this.
Hanging on, swallowing screams, begging angels for relief.