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Thursday, July 24, 2014

So lets see, 9 months ago I made a decision to quit my office job and pursue my passion and latest degree in baking by taking a job as a full time baker w/potentional to train into decorating and such. Sadly at the same time we, me, husband and two adult children, were facing the lose of our residence due to mishandled finances. While some of this was within my control other elements were not.

The kids got assistance and got into a place of their own. With the help of my 401k and pension contributions we lived in a hotel for a bit before landing our place. During that time we had to eat out quite a bit as there was no way other than the microwave to prepare food where we were.

Once getting into our new place things kind of got back to normal however I was still fighting the change I initiated in regard to my job and sleep schedule. For years, 20+, I worked an 8 to 5 job, this one was a 130-10pm job and this was a challange for me but I did slowly adapt to it. Plus we had made the decision for my husband to go back out as an over the road truck seeing as in all honesty he made more money doing that than being local.

We adopted a dog with the intent of him helping keep us active plus to take with us on many adventures. Sadly this hasn't worked out so well and we are just great lazy buddies, lol. Now I've been fired, waiting on unemployment and have regained all the weight I lost last year. I've been going through the motions but not really committing to anything.

I realized today just how far I've let myself fall. How much I've given up on me, not life or society or anyone else just Me, Myself and I. Mostly because I couldn't prevent things while being able to prevent things from happening. As of right now that is all in the past, what is done is done and cannot be undone.

I will work from here forward to improve me, to learn from my mistakes, to seek counsel and help vs stuffing my face with junk that only harms me vs nuturing me.

I am strong and determined. Despite not training for it I did complete my 3rd Warrior Dash for St. Jude's and am ready to tackle more next year simply because finances won't permit me to do more this year.

Here is to regaining ME!

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    2204 days ago
  • LADYJ6942
    A stronger me: Thank you. I am hitting the library most days of the week to submit applications with my resume and have had some interviews. I keep pushing, not to worried about the job, it'll workout but I am, no was, a bit mad at myself for the weight gain. However instead I'm forgiving myself, loving myself and picking myself back up.

    2208 days ago
    With all you have been through - I think you are prepared for the future. At age 59, I changed jobs - scary, but doable. Get out of the house and find a job that puts you among the world, not sitting at home.

    You can do this! Get up and show us how!!
    2208 days ago
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