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A Smooth Sea Never Made a Skillful Sailor

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

In July I took a detour that I didn't intend on. But, I assure you it IS a detour and not a dead-end street. On the fourth of July I reached a milestone. I got down to 178 pounds and was successfully halfway done losing weight. But, I also ran out of my depression, mania, and migraine medication and the prescriptions were out of refills. I mistakenly thought I had to wait until I saw my doctor on the 24th in order to renew the prescriptions. So, I wasn't taking any medication. This went disastrously, as you would expect. I slipped into a very dark depression and lacked any kind of energy or motivation. I lost all interest in all activities that I had once been so pumped about. I had been losing weight at a great pace before, but without meds I suddenly started going in the opposite direction. I gained ten pounds and didn't want to take any exercise anymore, I just wanted to stay in bed. The only thing I could manage was watching episodes of Game of Thrones and re-reading the book. My emails piled up and I never logged into Sparkpeople. I avoided everything. My grandmother noticed my newfound lack of interest in my weight loss efforts and asked me if I'd been taking my medication and I told her how my prescription had run out. She insisted I call the pharmacy and I told her I was going to wait until I saw my psychiatrist because it was only a few days. She said I absolutely couldn't wait any longer because I wasn't doing well at all. I argued with her even though I knew she was right. The next day she called the pharmacy and they faxed my psychiatrist. He filled the prescription right away and my grandpa went and picked my pills. After the second day of taking my pills I'm now feeling 100% better already and getting myself back on track.

I ended up having to withdraw from the couple of weight loss challenges that I had been in because I neglected to sign in to them for so long, but that may be for the best because I have a lot of work ahead of me in getting these ten pounds down and getting back on the journey again, but I am enthusiastic about it and I know that if I commit to it, I can definitely get the weight off in the next month or two. Then I will be halfway once again and I can work from there! So, really, it is not the end of the world, and not such a big deal as I was thinking it was when I was in the midst of it. It's a setback, true, but there are worse things and at least I am getting back on track now before I gained any more weight. And I have a renewed sense of commitment and energy now.

I can only think, what is in store for me in August? My birthday is coming up and we are planning a trip to Walt Disney World in September. I am determined to lose a few pounds for that because we will be going by airplane and I want to be sure that I will fit in the seats! Not to mention the rides. I want to be able to enjoy the trip as much as possible and not be worried the whole time about my size. So, it's important to me to be able to get down a few more pounds. At least back down to 178 where I was. And I believe I can do it. As much weight as I've lost so far and as far as I've come with as much ambition as I've had, I know that this is really just a fluke and I know the reasoning for it. I will be sure not to go without my medication again! And of course now I know if my prescription runs out I can just have the pharmacy fax my doctor. Which I really should've just tried to begin with. But, we live and learn I suppose. And now I've learned a valuable lesson about how easily one can regain weight and lose ground. It will be something for me to keep in mind when I am done losing weight and start maintaining.

It's good to learn these lessons early so that we can modify our behaviour, I think. To become wiser. I've certainly learned that I need to stick with Sparkpeople if I'm going to succeed. To start using Sparkcoach. And I need to track my food! When I stopped doing those things, I started gaining the weight again. I know what tools to utilize in order to make progress and it's important not to stray. And it's also important to keep on going. To not give up. The only way to get to where I want to go is if I take advantage of every opportunity that comes my way and keep forging ahead. Success happens through trial and error.

And I think the most successful people are the ones who fail the most because they are always out there trying. I may have come up against a little bump in the road, but now I am learning about the things that don't work in my life. It's an opportunity for me to see what's not working for me and if I'm clever, I'll take advantage of the chance to change it.

So, for August I am going to begin ahead and start on a brand new path. I'm going to revise all my goals and change the things in my life that aren't working for me. A fresh start.

After all, the path to success isn't the straight line that people imagine it is. It's more like this:

And it's never too late to be fit, to be healthy, to be the best of you.
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  • NANCY-
    Love, Love, Love your attitude.
    Even Edison found ways that things didn't work, until he found what did work.
    Love that you are living and learning.
    1396 days ago
    emoticon Take Care.
    1396 days ago
    I was so worried about you because I knew that with the momentum that you had something MUST have happened for you to just disappear like you did. I'm happy though that you've got back your medications and that you're seeing this setback for just what it was a setback. You will rebound and recover from this just like the champ that you are and I look forward to cheering you on as you make great leaps and bounds with your goals for August!!. emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
    emoticon I'm so proud of you! Thank you for the inspirational blog post. Sharing your bumps in the road and the lessons you learn from them speaks to so many of us. You're an inspiration. Thank you for being my Spark Friend. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
    What I'm most drawn to in your blog is, "I think the most successful people are the ones who fail the most because they are always out there trying."

    Congratulations on having realized this truth--and by the way, you do realize that you are, by your own definition, a truly successful person., right?

    Job well done on getting past the blip in the road and moving forward with renewed commitment. Cannot wait to read your Spark Success Story!
    1397 days ago
    Hey-you've made great ;plans for August and that is what counts .............. Glad you got the medications back and are getting right back on track .............. I know you can do it; you already have accomplished so much ............... Here for you! emoticon
    1397 days ago
    I'm glad things are okay now and you're back on track! I've had setbacks like this too, it's important to never give up and emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
    emoticon Slip-ups happen sometimes and it's OK! And now you've learned a valuable lesson that will help carry you forward. You should say a big "thank-you" to those grandparents of yours who obviously care about you a lot! Glad to see you're ok and feeling good again. I think losing before your trip is a good goal for now and I wouldn't worry too much about your weight. I should think you'll fit on the rides and even on the plane even at the size you are now, but it still sounds like it will make a good motivator! Good luck and keep moving forward!
    1397 days ago
  • KAYDE53
    Sounds like you have some wonderful grandparents! Glad you're rebooting & are going to keep on going! I know you can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
    Blessings to your Grandparents for helping you in this situation!! I am so glad you're feeling better now. THAT;S the biggest thing. The rest will fall into place, m dear.

    HUGS and so glad you're back with your Spark Family.
    1397 days ago
    Take care and you'll be back on track before you know it!

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    1397 days ago
    So glad you got your medication issue resolved and that you are back on track. We missed you on the Lemon team. Failure is only failure when we fail to learn from it. Life is about progress not perfection. We will all have some set backs and the invitation to begin again is new everyday. Peace! emoticon emoticon
    1397 days ago
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