I was off of Spark People - and off track - for years. I decided to come back and renew my commitments to being healthy about three months ago.
I came back with another child, ten pounds more than when I had started Spark People the first time, and with far more severe back problems.
I am being less intense this time. I am losing a pound most weeks, and a few times, I have stayed the same. So, no gains. And also no dramatic 3 or 4 pound losses in a week.
I think that's probably good.
I'm trying to go slowly and track goals that I feel confident I can sustain for years and years.
Honestly, this slow progress isn't always that exciting or motivating.
I'm trying to have a good attitude on the weeks when I stay the same. I try to see the big picture, and recognize that if that is a "bad" week then I have a lot to feel proud of, because there is no damage to undo.
But when I got on the scale this morning and saw that I had lost a pound and a half, I felt so much better!
Right now, I am trying to honor that feeling and use it for momentum without getting all carried away and trying to make sweeping changes that I'm not ready to commit to long term.
My husband and I are celebrating our ten year wedding anniversary next month, and we're having a ceremony to renew our vows. It is very tempting to try to dramatically reduce my calorie intake or do crazy yo-yo-like stuff.
This blog is my reminder that I can be extra mindful and reduce my portion size if I feel full. But I don't need to race toward anything.
I have a dress that fits nicely right now. If I didn't lose a pound in the next month, that would be just fine.
I have lost a little over ten pounds that I know I can keep off.
I have walked a total of more than 25 miles.
I have started a modern dance class and kept up with it - despite often feeling like a clumsy hippo.
I am doing yoga every week and I can feel my core muscles getting stronger.
Even better than any of this (but certainly connected to all of this) . . . I know my back is getting better.
Slow and steady wins the race.