so much change, and an encouraging finding
Sunday, July 20, 2014
So, in the past 4 weeks all of this has happened:
1- moved to a new city with my husband
2- got set up in our new place
3- we both started new jobs, and have been a little stressy... or maybe alot stressy
4- planted my new container garden
5- gained back about 8lbs from what i had recently lost :(
I know exactly how I gained the weight back, it's no mystery. there was alot of stress eating coupled with eating out ALOT in the 2wks prior to and the week after moving. i could have made better choices, but i just gave in bc so much was going on and i was worried/stressed about it all. and then the stress itself is no good for maintaining or losing weight.
So, I had not surprisingly started getting down on myself for gaining weight back... not that those thoughts were motivating me to change anything... but I was feeling bad about my weight and gaining weight back. And then at work, I noticed that my chubby thighs had worn a hole in a pair of my slacks- which was just salt in the open wounds. My only prayer for the rest of the day was to get through without then ripping further, or anyone noticing!!
And then I reeeaaally needed new clothes. I have not bought pretty much any new work clothes for the past 3 years. I kept telling myself that I should wait until I lose weight, and then spend the money and gift cards I had been saving. But it's to the point that I really need some clothes. I wear the same outfits in the same rotation every week, and they are getting faded and obviously worn (as seen in the example noted above).
So I gave in, and my wonderful husband let me buy some new clothes. I was expecting a depressing adventure in finding something to fit my body, as my proportions are not made for easy fitting, and I remember my last depressing shopping spree 3 years ago. But to my surprise, I found that I was easily fitting into many size 14 things at the Loft, and L instead of XL!
That shopping trip was a bright reminder that even though I haven't even come close to meeting my goals, I have made progress. I'm still 15lbs less than I was at my highest weight, and even that makes things better.
My efforts are renewed. I have hope. I can do this. I can do better. And I don't need to get so down on myself. I need to be nice to me.