ILIKECACTI

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so much change, and an encouraging finding

Sunday, July 20, 2014

So, in the past 4 weeks all of this has happened:
1- moved to a new city with my husband
2- got set up in our new place
3- we both started new jobs, and have been a little stressy... or maybe alot stressy
4- planted my new container garden
5- gained back about 8lbs from what i had recently lost :(

I know exactly how I gained the weight back, it's no mystery. there was alot of stress eating coupled with eating out ALOT in the 2wks prior to and the week after moving. i could have made better choices, but i just gave in bc so much was going on and i was worried/stressed about it all. and then the stress itself is no good for maintaining or losing weight.

So, I had not surprisingly started getting down on myself for gaining weight back... not that those thoughts were motivating me to change anything... but I was feeling bad about my weight and gaining weight back. And then at work, I noticed that my chubby thighs had worn a hole in a pair of my slacks- which was just salt in the open wounds. My only prayer for the rest of the day was to get through without then ripping further, or anyone noticing!!

And then I reeeaaally needed new clothes. I have not bought pretty much any new work clothes for the past 3 years. I kept telling myself that I should wait until I lose weight, and then spend the money and gift cards I had been saving. But it's to the point that I really need some clothes. I wear the same outfits in the same rotation every week, and they are getting faded and obviously worn (as seen in the example noted above).

So I gave in, and my wonderful husband let me buy some new clothes. I was expecting a depressing adventure in finding something to fit my body, as my proportions are not made for easy fitting, and I remember my last depressing shopping spree 3 years ago. But to my surprise, I found that I was easily fitting into many size 14 things at the Loft, and L instead of XL!

That shopping trip was a bright reminder that even though I haven't even come close to meeting my goals, I have made progress. I'm still 15lbs less than I was at my highest weight, and even that makes things better.

My efforts are renewed. I have hope. I can do this. I can do better. And I don't need to get so down on myself. I need to be nice to me.
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  • JLPEASE
    That was a nice surprise! You ARE making progress!
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    2529 days ago
  • WATCH_HER_GO
    Good for you! I'm glad you found something to be proud of. You keep going on this journey even when you struggle. I know how that feels!
    2529 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5821225
    Keep pushing, a little set back happens sometimes. Just jump back on the train and keep going!
    You can do this!
    2530 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5707126
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Enjoy the new clothes and they will probably add to your sense of self esteem. emoticon on the new move and I hope that it is all you are hoping it will be. I feel like I have been a participant in you journey. Best Wishes for an emoticon future! emoticon
    2531 days ago
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