Not much left to do...
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Well, lots of good news this week. First of all, ALL my tests came back normal. EGD, Spirometry, CT Scan, all good. Very happy about that. I had the CT scan since my blood pressures were off from arm to arm. Still don't know why, but at least I know that there's nothing seriously wrong with me.
I have my last lifeskills class on Tuesday, I'll be going for the big blood draw too before I go to work. I need that blood work before I goto the doc on the 22nd for a surgical clearance. I just had my thyroid meds bumped up and now I'm on a diuretic too. Hate being on all these stinking pills, but I'm hoping that when I get some of this weight off that it will help and I can start dropping them like hot potatoes.
I'm starting to look at vitamins and figuring out what I'll eat post surgery. It's gonna be like night and day. I'm going to go from eating like a horse to eating like a mouse, but hey, maybe if I was eating like a dog all my life I wouldn't need to eat like a mouse!
Went and bought a scale today and weighed myself. It's either waaaaay off or I've lost 10 pounds in like 2 weeks. I was weighed at the hospital during my first lifeskills class and I weighed in at 283.4. Today I weighed 273.1. I haven't really done a whole lot, just tried to make better selections. Eating lots of fruits, making lots of fruit smoothies. Love them! Just blended fruit (whatever we've got), maybe some orange juice, maybe some greek fat free yogurt, whatever I've got, it goes in. I've had smoothies with as many as 8 fruits in there all at once. Sounds gross but it's not. It's all fresh, REAL stuff with out all the crappy preservatives and chemicals.
For the last week I've been tracking my food here on SP. I find that the new feature that allows you to scan the barcode on the product helps greatly! I've been doing pretty good for the most part. Averaging about 1800-2000 cals a day.
I'm really starting to get more and more nervouse the closer I get to submitting for approval from my insurance company. I hope they don't pull any "you need to do this" junk which would delay getting a date.
My wife and I were talking today and she said her father is concerned about my having this surgery. He knows how much I like to eat food and he fears that after surgery I won't be any happier than I am now. I replied that that's the reason that I'm fat.... food makes me happy. That's exactly what got me into this mess to begin with. I need to find something ELSE that makes me happy. Will it be exercise? Will it be woodworking, knitting, pottery?? Who knows. I just know that the relationship I have with food needs to and will change drastically. What it boils down to is simply this... I'm going to have this surgery, you can support me or not. It's up to them. But with or without the support from certain individuals, I'm going to have this surgery. I'm not happy now as a fatty, the way I see it, I have to take the chance and do it for me.