I've come a long way
Friday, July 11, 2014
I can't believe I'm in the 130's. One year ago I was in the 150's. One year ago I remember doing a 95lb deadlift with my trainer and thinking "This is soooo heavy. I think he has me confused with someone else, I can't believe he expects me to deadlift this". Now, that's my warmup weight. I also remember thinking I would never be able to barbell squat 95lbs - I tried a few times on my own and never got very low and never more than a couple of reps and then I would give up. Again, thanks to my trainer working with me, I steadily got stronger. And that is also a warmup weight for me. I haven't tried a max in a while but I seem to recall it was 175. I need to keep track of this stuff so I don't forget. I used to play a lot of volleyball and had slender arms....I remember looking at my arms in the mirror, probably about a year ago, and thinking "oh well, I'm getting older, I guess my arms will never look as good as when I was younger and played volleyball" Guess what? My arms look 100% better now than when I was younger and playing VB regularly. Seeing this upper body transformation is what gives me motivation to keep working on my lower body - cause I have/had the same thoughts about my legs as I used to about my arms. They are responding, slowly but surely. (and my ab muscles are starting to peek through - hope to post a pic soon)
I keep a journal and I write down my weight and what I eat and how my training went and how I'm feeling...it's been amazing to look back at my entries and see what I was going through and how I've completely changed. I used to lament about "having" to do this and wanting to quit and often 'fessing up to slip ups. Now, my entries are about my great workouts, how much I love training, and how I'm tweaking my macronutrients. I'm so much happier now, and I never thought I was an unhappy person before. I don't think I was unhappy but I think that deep down, I was disappointed with myself because I knew I could be physically a better person. I knew I had muscles underneath all the fat, I always thought of myself as a strong person but it certainly didn't look like it when I was 170+ lbs and getting fatter every year. I'm so glad I'm not there anymore.