Day 52 - too late
Wednesday, July 09, 2014
I think above all else this concept really scares me. I think lately I have been thinking a lot about how life winds down. In a blog a few days ago, I talked about how your world tends to contract and get smaller as life progresses beyond a certain point. All this walking and running really gets the thoughts flowing and today I was thinking, ok so I am 48. My life is still full of possibilities. All that I may dream can still be possible for me as long as I work towards it. I was thinking specifically of my running program. I want to run for 30 mins, so I am doing it. For some reason, it is very important to me. I was thinking today as I was walking along, working on getting my 10000 steps in that I don't want to wake up some morning feeling old with a body that is feeling its age and that is unable to move and do what I want it to do.
I don't want to wake some morning and say...ohhh my, it is too late to do those things I wanted to do. I am to old, too tired and my body just can't anymore. This is probably one of my greatest fears, that I will regret what I could have done.
I think I may be on a bit of a soul search. I think at 48, I am just figuring out what is important to me in my life and what I want to accomplish. As I figure these things out, I am going to strive towards them. I don't ever want to think it is too late.