Thursday, July 03, 2014
Okay, fellow Sparkers, I am in need of the Gibbs slap I got yesterday.
I need to check in with Spark daily - and I am in need of a team or Spark Buddy for support. Do you have any recommendations?
I pushed too hard in my at-home PT to be able to run/walk a 5 mile race tomorrow - and now I am limping again on my stiff knee. I SO want to be able to run. I am near tears as I write this. I like my Galloway group here, but it got to be emotionally painful to read about everyone else running races and such. I haven't run a single race this season. I will have bailed on 5 races. And now I am sure I won't be able to run any half marathons this year. I can't believe that my hopes now are pinned on maybe being able to do a short 3-mile race in August. Maybe. Dang it. I am only 49, and I want to be to run until I'm 100.
And yes, my weight is still up, my clothes are too snug. I haven't quite surpassed my highest non-pregnant weight. I have been an emotional eater. I'd hoped with DH's return to 'permanent' employment, that some weight would drop off. Nope.
My primary bright spot has been hiking, finishing segments on Wisconsin's 1200 mile long Ice Age Trail.
This weekend poses many challenges - lots of temptation, sadness and frustration about the race, perhaps a little too much togetherness. But, it also will be a break from daily life and I'll get to be with extended family that welcomes me!