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Why do I do this?

Saturday, June 28, 2014

This week has been a (w)itch. Thursday we got an $83,000 check from one insurer. It was complicated and required careful handling more than usual (the detail ran 59 pages). I worked six hours straight on it -- barely stood up, didn't eat or even use the bathroom. I finished around 4PM. Did I feel proud or accomplished? No, just stupid and vaguely depressed.

I keep feeling like if I don't do more, give more, never need rest or food (just the perfect little corporate robot), then I'm worthless and a slacker.

Which is probably a major reason I'm on a walker at only 61 -- glued into the cube until quitting time.
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    Studies show that taking breaks during the day INCREASES productivity. For a week why not set a timer, take your two fifteen minute breaks and your lunch period. I think you will get as much done as working straight through and will feel much better. Hope it works for you! emoticon
    1427 days ago
  • LIS193
    1427 days ago
    As hard as it is, you need to take care of you. emoticon
    1427 days ago
    I agree with a lot of the other, you must take care of yourself in order to be able to do what you can for others. Easy for us to say, though, right?
    1428 days ago
    you need to look after yourself first
    1428 days ago
  • BILL60
    You first, everything else to the back seat.
    1428 days ago
  • TERRY0217
    Take care of yourself sweetie...then, can take care of others..
    1428 days ago
  • MBPP50
    You sound like the old me. Gotta take care of you or you will be useless to anyone else. emoticon
    1428 days ago
    You are aware of the concern --- now it is just a matter of changing what needs to be changed --- make yourself look out for your best interest, okay?

    It is obvious that you are the one to make those changes --- no one else clued in to the fact that you were over doing or came to your rescue, if they did clue in. Truly, do you think anyone else cared that you were giving so much to your work? I don't think so!

    Where we should always give 100% to the task at hand --- after all that is what the pay check if for --- the fact remains that to give more than the 100% seldom, if ever pays off. In this case it ended up with your being frustrated with yourself for allowing what happened.

    Please do remember that it truly is okay to give only 100% & that to keep at something like that is not at all in your best interest. Your mind & your body need a break --- so please do allow yourself to take fair breaks when at work. Actually, the task at hand may go more smoothly when you do. Most of all you won't end up frustrated with yourself for not doing what is in your best interest.

    God bless!
    1428 days ago
    Try using the videos for exercise on the computer for at your desk, to move just a little. remember baby steps & then look yourself in the mirror & say out loud, I"M WORTH IT!!

    1428 days ago
    Make sure you take care of YOURSELF! emoticon Don't overdo it!
    1428 days ago
    You are a super woman, but you are not Superwoman! Please take time to do all the things we mortals find necessary. Things like emoticon and emoticon and emoticon and don't forget emoticon . emoticon emoticon
    1428 days ago
    You need to get up & walk around some. Get some rest!! emoticon
    1428 days ago
    I have to echo MIAMOJO -- sounds like some pretty impossible standards you are living up to. UGH

    Hope you get some time to de-compress today. You need it!
    1428 days ago
    We are all here to encourage you or listen to you vent if you need to. Keep the faith and everything will work out exactly as planned!
    1428 days ago
    It sounds as if you're holding yourself up to some impossible standards! Does the company you work for really expect you to be like a robot, or are you bringing this upon yourself? Try taking a lunch break and see what happens -- it may not have the consequences you think it does. You have the right -- and the basic needs as a human -- to eat and visit the restroom, and to take good care of yourself. Best of luck to you!

    1428 days ago
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