Time To Sink Or Swim
Friday, June 27, 2014
I'm not sure what made me do it but I decided the other day to set a goal of jumping off the edge of the deep pool into the water. I even posted my goal on Facebook to hold myself accountable. I was very touched by how much support and encouragement I received after my post.
I've been working on my fear of water for awhile and have gotten to the point where I could ease myself into the water and slowly work myself up to putting my head underwater. I would swim down and back holding on to a floaty board with my head up out of the water, then I would swim down and back on my back, then I'd swim down and back with a snorkel mask on. By the end of my 30 minute session, I might be willing to try exhaling through my nose once or twice. I was getting very frustrated with how slowly I was progressing so I decided it was time to do something drastic, to literally "sink or swim."
I headed out to the "big" pool. I was the only person there so I went to the far lane (where the exit ladders are). I stood at the edge of the 5' deep end and, after taking several deep breaths, held my nose and jumped off the edge. I'm only 5 feet tall so I knew I would be totally underwater. My feet touched bottom and I shot back up to the surface. I climbed up the ladder, moved to my right a few steps and jumped again. I repeated this process all the way down the side of the pool, eventually working all the way to the 8 foot deep end. Then I moved around the corner to the starting blocks at the end and jumped 5 more times in the deepest part of the pool. I made a total of 25 jumps and my feet touched the bottom every single time! It was very scary but also kind of exciting.
I ended my session by doing the breaststroke from the deep end to the shallow end. When I got out of the pool, I started shaking so badly I could hardly walk. I know it was just the adrenaline that was flooding through my body. Afterwards, my hubby asked if it had gotten easier as I'd gone along. I told him that I had really been trying not to think about it as I was doing it. I'm not sure what my next step will be but I'm hopeful that my progress continues on. This was such a huge accomplishment for me.