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So disheartened

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

The pain management doctor told me that I needed a steroid shot to the back, and that I was not allowed to ride my bike until he had reevaluated me at least two weeks after that shot. He only does the shots on Wednesdays. I hadn't heard from him in over a week, so I called. My insurance company still has not preauthorized the treatment. That means AT LEAST one more week before I can get it done, AT LEAST three more weeks before I can begin biking again. Which means, as a practical matter, I won't be doing any serious biking until AT LEAST August.

I am already at the edge of my coping rope. I am still deep in grief, exhausted, in pain, and barely able to handle my work load. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I am so tired of my own whining. I wish I could write positive things. Today, my great accomplishment was finally unpacking our suitcases and getting the laundry started. That, and cleaning up my kitchen. Now I feel like I deserve to go to bed.
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    You do deserve to go to bed. You and your family have been through a lot and you are having to deal with the maddening slowness of medical bureaucracy. Sleep and rest can be a very good thing for you. emoticon
    1697 days ago

    I'm sorry, that is rough. Can you contact your doctor and ask him to recommend some activity that it's safe for you to do until you can get back to biking?
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