Hmmm..when to fight, when to go with the flow?
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Blah,, blah blah...still lazy and eating badly and no exercise. Hoping todasy is the day as my back is begiinning to get so tight it wakes me up at night. Finally weighed in and shocked to find it only 158.6 on two scales...but of course I can see the difference in what the
'weight' is fat v muscle.
I am pondering the ability of the universe to deliver on hopes and dreams on a wildly fast response time. Being told that the house will sell within the first month of listing, so trying to focus on all the things I need to do before I put the sign in the yard. (And dreading the local yokels who will just be nosey and want to poke around and how to turn them away).
Hubs had an unexpected potential job in Hawaii dropped in his lap from out of nowhere, he is asking me if he has to go 'sooner' then we are ready and havve sold if I can handle it alone on this end! Yipes. This is the ONLY house we've ever purchased and I've NEVER sold one before, so no clue.
Now the nursing home has told me my mom has 'plateu-ed' and they are going to release her early at the beginning of the month , way before her 100 day Medicare coverage would pay (but of course Medicare's conditons are that she is continuing to improve". I am torn, as I would like closer control of her meds and such but I was really counting on having July as a work month with no distractions. Not sure if I should rock the boat and get them to re-evaluate her or just give in and bring her home. In a werid way it is almost easier on me to have her home then deal with my 'anti social' anxiety of going to the nursing home everyday! I do not think she is fully recovered in strength from her recent spill IN the nursing home, however......sooooo......not sure if I should try to exert myself to change their mind or accept their determination. She does usually get stronger when I have her as she gets to move around more and stay up later, etc.
Of course we have plans to move her to Hawaii WITH us.....and now suddenly the east coast sister who has long expressed her lack of love for mom and her desire to see mom 'get what is coming to her' for being lousy mom in her youth, is suddenly saying she wants to move her to New Jersey lest she never see her again (she never see's her NOW....oh and of course only on the condition she be in a nursing home there) so her grandkids can get to know my mom before she dies. In my husbands words, 'that shipped has sailed' as they never came home to 'bond' with her while she could communicate and now with little to no verbal skills, they are not going to be able to 'get to know her'. I think I smell a rat. a GREEDY rat. haha (oh and that sister is 'hurt' that we won't consider GIVING her adult son the nice pickup truck we intend to sell, as we are selling everything to gather as much cash to move on /fall back on , as possible. WTH? I've offered to give her a 10 % family discount on the price! Sheesh!
I find it very odd that as mom's primary care giver suddenly other sisters want a 'share' in mom's life, for dubious reasons. ANYWAYYYYYYYY
To work on the myriad list of jobs to get the house ready or workout. OY VIE...decisions decisions...no reaosn I can't do both...I suppose. Except (here is a new one for ya) my vagina hurts. ROFL