Tuesday, June 24, 2014
I watched an episode of "Extreme Weight Loss" tonight, quite by accident. I'm traveling, and was flipping through channels in my hotel room as I sit at my computer. I came across it, and watched.
And cried, of course.
I'm learning what the difference is between a person on "Extreme Weight Loss" and others of you out there who have lost 10 lbs, 20, 30, 40, 80, or whatever amount of weight, and me. The difference between all of you and me?
You don't quit.
Despite all the obstacles, the rough schedules, the emotions, the personal challenges, the wanting to slide back into bad behaviors, you simply DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF.
You don't lose sight of your goal.
You don't give yourself reasons to eat mass amounts of 'comfort' food.
You don't make excuses for not moving.
You don't make excuses for not tracking.
You don't make excuses for not eating right.
You go at the weight loss like a job: whether you like it or not, you show up.
Day in and day out, you commit, and you don't lose sight of your goal.
You don't give up on yourself.
The fact is, I am choosing to be an undisciplined mess, eating sh*t whenever I want, and ultimately sliding back down.
No need to try to pick me back up. I go here way too often, and if you look at my January blog, you'll see that I've done it for the past 5 years I've been on this web site (and far longer than that). I just am not sure why I give up on myself when I clearly see and feel results when I do the right thing for myself.
I'll let you know when I decide to get my head out of my "I don't give a sh*t" funk. It will probably take some photos of myself to really see my reality, to recognize that what I see in a photo is not what is what I see in the mirror (a trick mirror where I decide I look thin when I'm not). Photos show the harsh reality.
The difference is simple. You don't give up (so why do I?)
Good night Sparkers. You are awesome.