Tuesday, June 24, 2014
I watched an episode of "Extreme Weight Loss" tonight, quite by accident. I'm traveling, and was flipping through channels in my hotel room as I sit at my computer. I came across it, and watched.
And cried, of course.
I'm learning what the difference is between a person on "Extreme Weight Loss" and others of you out there who have lost 10 lbs, 20, 30, 40, 80, or whatever amount of weight, and me. The difference between all of you and me?
You don't quit.
Despite all the obstacles, the rough schedules, the emotions, the personal challenges, the wanting to slide back into bad behaviors, you simply DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF.
You don't lose sight of your goal.
You don't give yourself reasons to eat mass amounts of 'comfort' food.
You don't make excuses for not moving.
You don't make excuses for not tracking.
You don't make excuses for not eating right.
You go at the weight loss like a job: whether you like it or not, you show up.
Day in and day out, you commit, and you don't lose sight of your goal.
You don't give up on yourself.
The fact is, I am choosing to be an undisciplined mess, eating sh*t whenever I want, and ultimately sliding back down.
No need to try to pick me back up. I go here way too often, and if you look at my January blog, you'll see that I've done it for the past 5 years I've been on this web site (and far longer than that). I just am not sure why I give up on myself when I clearly see and feel results when I do the right thing for myself.
I'll let you know when I decide to get my head out of my "I don't give a sh*t" funk. It will probably take some photos of myself to really see my reality, to recognize that what I see in a photo is not what is what I see in the mirror (a trick mirror where I decide I look thin when I'm not). Photos show the harsh reality.
The difference is simple. You don't give up (so why do I?)
Good night Sparkers. You are awesome.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
You are on this road here and now. Be kind to yourself.
1437 days ago
YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN UP ON YOURSELF OR YOU WOULD NOT HAVE WRITTEN THIS BLOG, NOT STILL BE ON SPARK, NOT EVEN SAY YOU ARE GIVING UP ON YOURSELF...WHY BOTHER IF YOU GAVE UP?
Now, you may not be totally on board...you may be hanging on by a string, but you are there...you have not given up.
And you are not alone...you are among good strong company (me included)!
So, keep hanging on, with one hand, then two, then pull yourself up, and you will get on board and move forward!
Love & Hugs,
P.s. Reread when necessary!
1456 days ago
I know there are many people here, including myself, who could have written this
1456 days ago
Since you have kept coming back here for so long, I'd have to say that there is absolute proof that you don't ever fully "give up on yourself" --- you just change focus for a while and then come back. Quite honestly, that you have kept coming back here is really inspiring - it totally shows that you haven't quit, but will keep trying until you find what works for you.
Try not to let comparisons to others get to you - everyone has their own challenges, and TV shows and blogs are usually edited to show only the successes and not the failures. Those who you've seen in the "success stories" have often been there many times (and quite likely will be there again, after their success succumbs to life).
A ton of business travel is highly stressful, and I can say from years of experience with it that it can get really hard to keep any kind of focus on yourself and your needs --- every trip has so many demands that you try to take care of while you're there, that it's too easy to just lose yourself in it. Try to remember that this will pass, and just get through what you need to do for now. Sometimes "survival" is the priority, and "thriving" just has to wait...
Set up an appointment for yourself the next time that you're home to just sit down and think about what kind of lifestyle that you really, really want. Forget about what the scale says, what a "healthy" life is *supposed* to be, and just think about what makes you happy. Think about what activities you enjoy, what routines make your life easier, and what stressful things you can ditch. Figure out one thing that you want to add - maybe a morning yoga stretch, or an evening walk, or a fruit smoothie in the afternoon, or a glass of wine with some really good cheese after dinner - and then make sure that you do that every day for yourself. Once you've got that in your routine, then add something else.
Don't worry about the scale or anything else for a while - just do one little thing at a time to keep your focus on *you* and what makes you feel good. Just keep in mind that you truly have to be the priority, since you can't take care of anyone or anything else if you are not taken care of first.
You really are an inspiration, and there are many who read your blogs and see your honesty who get new motivation from sharing your journey. I'm looking forward to hearing about your next steps, and where you've chosen to go from here.
1457 days ago
You are awesome too, make sure you remember that.
1457 days ago
I don't think it is a matter of giving up. It's a feeling of being worth it. You have value as a mom, a friend, and as yourself. Now treat yourself as a valuable object.
1457 days ago
You are worth every effort you make.
1457 days ago
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