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Hiking Paulina Creek, Missing Mom

Monday, June 23, 2014

I led a hike on Paulina Creek on Saturday with 8 other hikers, I really enjoyed the group. The trail was dusty, and followed the creek. We hiked about 6.5 miles.

Paulina Creek is named after Chief Paulina, who was a warrior who attacked many Oregon settlers.

Our hiking group crossing the bridge

McKay Falls, our destination. McKay was one of the scouts who was instrumental in tracking Chief Paulina, and stopping his attacks.

We took an alternate trail back which was an adventure. Because it was a fisherman's trail, it was not used by horses and was MUCH less dusty. After the hike we visited lovely Paulina Falls.

There is a lot of water in the double falls, because the snow is melting very quickly.

I missed mom all week long but particularly on Sunday; for years I have called her every Sunday. My younger sister felt the same loss (we both called every Sunday, even when she could no longer pick up the phone. She said she heard our voices over the answering machine by her bed).

I have a couple of photos from my final visit, trying to focus on happier memories.

My sister with me in mom’s apartment

My brother. These photos are from the first day of my visit, when mom was more alert and able to communicate.

Mom always loved the grounds of the nursing home. Even when she couldn't walk, she loved looking out the windows and her rare wheelchair trips (the wheelchair was very painful for her)

Here is a photo of the resident apartment units (mom lived in one of the apartments before she became so ill).

The courtyard outside the nursing home

The flower garden outside the window

Flowers are watered and selected by other residents in the senior community.

My mom selected this poem (anonymous writer) to be read at her funeral. I find it both powerful and comforting.

Weep not for me though I am gone into that gentle night
by Unknown Author

Weep not for me though I am gone into that gentle night.
Grieve if you will, but not for long upon my soul's sweet flight.
I am at peace, my soul's at rest
There is no need for tears.
For with your love I was so blessed.
For all those many years.
There is no pain, I suffer not,
The fear now all is gone.
Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.
Remember not my fight for breath
Remember not the strife.
Please do not dwell upon my death,
But celebrate my life.
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  • -NORMA-
    The poem brings tears to my eyes.
    1379 days ago
    I enjoyed the pictures of the hike so much!

    And thanks for sharing the lovely pictures of your family and where your mom's last home.

    Hope you are doing as well as can be expected. It's a process.
    1382 days ago
    Dear Alison, I so wish I could give you a big hug! I know for myself how beautiful hikes help to cope with sadness, and so I am glad you went hiking. It looked like a gorgeous place! Thank you for showing us the pictures of the garden at your mother's nursing home. How beautiful! The garden where my mother is now isn't nice, but it is right next to the forest and that is truly beautiful.
    1387 days ago
    The pictures are beautiful. The poem brought tears to my eyes. Your Mom was a wise woman. Treasure the memories and take care of yourself.
    1394 days ago
  • THIN133
    You're hiking picture are beautiful ! What lovely family photos ! Treasured memories. So sorry to hear about your loss. It must be a difficult time. Sending hugs & thoughts your way.
    1396 days ago
    Hi Alison,
    Thanks for sharing all these wonderful photos of your family and the nursing home.. It looks like a very pleasant setting and it's no wonder your Mom loved the gardens and grounds. It's great that you led the hike even though you are naturally missing your Mom. The scenery is beautiful and the waterfall looks spectacular. This lovely poem is indeed very powerful and comforting; thank you for sharing that too.
    God bless - sending warm thoughts and hugs your way,

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    1396 days ago
    I have been out of town and just catching up on blogs...I am sending hugs and prayers during your time of grieving. I'm glad you enjoyed a beautiful hike and I liked seeing all the pictures of Paulina Creek and from the nursing home. Even though you will never stop missing your mom, you will cherish memories of her always. Thank you for sharing the poem~it is beautiful.
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    1397 days ago
  • DR1939
    Lovely hike. I used to call my mom on Sunday evening. I miss her still. The nursing facility grounds are very pretty.
    1397 days ago
  • YMWONG22
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    1397 days ago
    I think your mother was a very wise woman. You will miss her for a long time, I know, Alison, but I think it's good that you are getting back to some of your regular activities.

    The nursing home where your mother lived looks beautiful, and I'm sure some of the staff will be missing her a lot too.

    Do you have any trips planned for this summer or fall? I hope you are able to get some time off soon.

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    1397 days ago
    Going on that hike was really helpful for you -such a good stress reliever! Gorgeous hiking photos! Especially the waterfalls!
    It was nice your Mom had a nice place to be. Glad you were able to be with her during her last days. Sorry for your loss. Keep hiking those beautiful trails..your Mom would be proud of you!
    1397 days ago
  • SUNSHINE99999
    love the waterfall pictures. emoticon
    1397 days ago
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