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Day eleven - cunning disease...

Sunday, June 22, 2014

I belog to an online supportgroup of swedish ladies - it is not twelvestep program although some of us are into it.

One of the ladies has lately found the solution - she says. She is i a weight group at her local health centre and she has lost some weight since it started. She sort of acts like "problem is solved" and is moving towards an attitude where she starts to tell us what to do.

On misummer eve she ate som sweets that she had not planned and too much of them too. But later in the evening she passed some temptations without giving in so she happily reported that she had made it and was still on the wagon...

Then today she writes that yesterday evening she made a chocolate cookie ad ate all of it... and now it is REALLY time to get things together...

My experience tells me that she started the craving when she had that sugar and allthough she could hold it back for 24 hours it was roaring in her and pushed her towards that cookie... To me, it is once again a proof that the disease of overeating/bulimi/anorexi is hard to "cure" an MY only chance is to become very honest about how I eat and also about everything else I have in my life. And what I can learn from that lady is that I need to be observant on my reactions both mentally and biological to give myself the best chance to manage a healthy eating.

I made patties from chickpeas, peanuts and carrots today and served with pasta and creamy blue cheese sauce to daughter - she ate the pasta&sauce but claimed that the patties got stuck in her braces - I think it´s more that she did not really like them which makes me sad, she will have no meat during her stay here and I will serve that kind of "burgers" more times and I don´t feel good about her being hungry because she is so picky with food...

We went to church today and I do have a strange daughter because she thought it was fun... Sweden is a VERY secular country and most heads in the congregation today were grey or white... and not that many.

My uterus is aching and as usual I think "CANCER" as soon as something painful shows up in my body. I will have to make an appointment with a doctor tomorrow, I fear it a little because it is summer time and very hard to get any health care.... I´ll do my best!
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    I have always found food addictions every bit as disturbing as alcoholism - and I go thro phases when I know I am on the verge of an alcohol problem. Bizarrely I can always pull myself away from alcohol whereas the various foods that trigger me are so much harder to resist. Finding an answer to all this seems so very difficult for so many.
    See you and your daughter are having a good time together - she's very lucky to have a mother with so many imaginative ways of having fun with her. Great that you bring joy to each other.
    1991 days ago
    Yep, these food issues are something we will have to deal with for the rest of our lives. We can never think "we are cured", as just like alcohol, that is when the monster will 'bite us'. This doesn't mean we have to suffer. It just means we always have to be aware.
    1991 days ago
    Addictive behavior is so much more than the simple act of consuming the substance in question (the cravings, the out of control behavior, the remorse, etc.). Putting the twelve steps to work in all of our affairs takes constant awareness and action. It still frightens me to see people "go out" but there's much to be learned from others' experiences.
    1992 days ago
    I think sugar is every bit as addictive as alcohol for some people. I have other "trigger" foods too and they are not always as easy to make a connection as to why I overeat on them. I won't overeat on almonds, but I will on peanuts or chashews. Never on apples but might on bananas. Always on good bread or cheese. You are right, we have to know how food affects us and plan accordingly. One size doesn't fit all!
    Enjoy your visit with DD. You find so many interesting things to share. Be well.
    1992 days ago
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