Wednesday, June 18, 2014
As I was saying, hearing about that lady's story has put my life and little miseries in perspective. So I was motivated to start over and do it right. It all comes down to me and I shouldn't use any excuse to not do it.
I am aiming for between 1200 to 1550 calories a day
Day 1 was Monday.
I was weighting 248 pounds when I woke up. mmmmm......
I had an appointment with the plastic surgeon. To make a story short, 2 years ago I asked my family doctor for a referal to a plastic surgeon for a breast reduction. Before giving me the referal, he sent me for a mammogram just to make sure everything was ok. We found a mass, then it was a massectomy and radiation treatments. Now, it has been over a year since my last radiation treatment so the surgeon told me I was entitled to reconstructive surgery to make my breasts even. (one is 2 cup smaller than the other). I told him I would prefer getting the reduction.
So Monday I was there to find out what medicare would pay and found out I can have it without cost. woohoo! it should happen in October or November.
The surgeon gave me all the information about the procedure, the risks and all... and asked me to lose as much weight as possible before it happens.
I was having a great day with my calories and it motivated me to keep at it.
Day 1 finished with 1381 calories!
On a roll, I modified the way I distributed the calories over the meals, and ended up with not so much calories for dinner and missing a few carbs... I ended up eating 1.25 cup of cooked spagetti without any sauce, butter. I thought I would cave in during the evening but no. I only had to think of how it is all on me. How I only have to be consistent for it to happen and it did the trick.
Day 2 finished with 1542 calories
Today I have to go back to the hospital for pictures. and I am looking forward to it as it means things are in motion.
So far, with my breakfast and the lunch and snacks I brought to work, by the time I get back home, I should have consumed about 800 calories. that will leave me with 400 to 750 calories for dinner so I should do fine.
I think part of me realised while talking to the plastic surgeon that I may feel like I'm 30, but my body is not reflecting that. Even if I am energetic, if nothing is stopping me, I don't think I have realised before that talk how fat I am. I am a fat 50yrs old woman and because of that, I am putting myself at risk of quite a list of problems : heart, high blood pressure, diabetese to name a few. He was asking me twice all the health questions as if it was not quite normal that I didn't have any of those... That got me to finally see where I am.
So I am really decided to lose weight. I have decided to stick to the program for 2 weeks, see how much I will lose. After that, I will have, once a week, a 1700 calorie day and stick to that new program for at least a month before making changes.
I have decided to not track exercises. For now my focus will be on food. Food has always been my problem and I know if I exercise, I am at risk of using this excuse to eat more. So no training. It doesn't mean I will sit on my butt in the living room, it just means I will not have targets... I do things anyway. I swim in the pool, I mow the lawn, I walk to and from the train each day. I have worn the bodymedia long enough to know I take at least 6000 steps in a normal day so it's not like I am inactive.
well that's it for now....