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Nervous and scared

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

So, my title says it all.

I am nervous I am off the wagon because yesterday I had a honey bun and ice cream. Once I allow the massive sweets overload in, I have a EXTREMELY hard time kicking it again I am trying to not let it derail me and chalk it up to a bad day but I have been craving sweets for days now... After cake Sunday, honey bun, ice cream and a bagel yesterday and half a bagel today. I cannot start over again... I have come too far.

I am nervous for the wedding... Its less than two months away and I am having MOH drama. She says she cant come one minute and yes the next. She doesn't talk to me for days and then complains I don't have time for her. I make a point to talk about her, not the wedding and she doesn't want to. I am lost.

I am scared the wedding will not be fun... We are getting married in Vegas. Short and sweet ceremony, unlimited boozes and food for a reception and a party bus after, fully stocked to wish us a farewell good bye. I am so concerned it will not be fun. I am concerned the families are going to mess this up for us. I am a bit of a control freak and am having troubles controlling this 1200 miles away!

I am mostly scare of being a wife. My mom divorced when I was a young girl and never remarried. My Fiancés' family was the same. What is a wife? I know I love this man unconditionally and would walk through fire for him. Is that enough? I supported him through career changes after leaving a job he had been at over 14 years... I've supported him for the last six and a half years through everything. Is that enough?

I'm nervous and scared!
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  • DILLIGAD1956
    Don't worry about what you can't control. Focus on what you can control and do what you want to do about those things. As to being a wife, I'm just a red-neck guy blessed with a wife who loves me. I think you've already described what it take s for a relationship to work in your post. When you become a 'wife' isn't that just formalizing and making a permanent commitment to the relationship you already have? I think you are all set but nervous about the unknown. You know what, I bet most people would feel the same. So, my two cents worth is, RELAX, let it roll, keep you head and move on into your permanent relationship with joy. Sounds to me like your husband to be is a lucky guy to have you. Oh, and get back on the wagon. You know you want to. emoticon emoticon
    1780 days ago
  • NIMIRRA137
    A few slip ups doesn't equal off the wagon. Try to make it one day at a time. Tomorrow focus on food and not splurging on anything sweet. Then the next day focus on that. I had 1/2 cup of ice cream yesterday but that won't make or break it.

    Your wedding sounds like a lot of fun. I am sure it will be great and people will enjoy it. If they don't, that's their problem not yours. The most important thing is that at the end of the day you're married to the man you love and you're happy.

    From the sounds of it, you're all ready doing what a wife 'should do'. You're in a loving, committed relationship and you stick by your man. If you're worried about being a good wife, talk to him. Make sure he's also prepared to be the husband you want him to be. Marriage is about wife and husband.
    1780 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Remember that when we fall off the wagon, we are just a meal, snack, or exercise from getting back on the wagon. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1780 days ago
    Take some deep breaths, you're going to be ok! Being a wife is something different to everyone. Talk about this with your fiance. Do either of you expect marriage to change your relationship, or is it simply a formal acknowledgement of the bond you already share? You've apparently been through a lot together, you can certainly make it through a day! Look at it as a celebration of everything you've accomplished together, and a promise to continue sharing your lives together in the future. It doesn't need to be anything more involved than that!
    I would have a serious sit down with the maid of honor and tell her you need a definitive answer. Ask her what's preventing her from being certain and see if it's something you can work around with her.
    A day of sweets is not going to undo everything you have accomplished, you can get back on track and be just fine! Just keep breathing, don't let yourself get too overwhelmed or beat yourself up!

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    1780 days ago
    Love is hard to define-but I think you have the idea. Don't worry whether the wedding will be fun for everyone else. It is your day with your new husband. Enjoy.
    1780 days ago
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