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In Memory Of My Best Friend

Monday, June 09, 2014

Two weeks from today I, along with five others, will be driving from New Mexico to Bluff, Utah where we'll spend the night before beginning our three day kayak trip down the San Juan River. The plans are all complete, reservations are all made, permits are in hand, gear is packed, and new tires are on the car. Yes, everything is going exactly as we had hoped when we began making these plans over a year ago. Except one thing. Tommy will not be with us.

Although Tommy did not kayak, he was always supportive of me and my son. He often shuttled us to local rivers and would wait patiently for us at a take-out point to pick us up and deliver us safely home. He was excited about this vacation and he was excited for us. He planned to go along and shuttle us to the San Juan River in Bluff and then pick us up three days later in Mexican Hat, Utah. He loved that area and wanted to spend those three days sightseeing and relaxing, just doing whatever he wanted, and then spending the remainder of vacation with us in Moab, Utah. Unfortunately, his battle with cancer came to an abrupt end shortly after we began making our plans.

With preparations now complete, I find myself with much more time to think about Tommy and how much he wanted to go with us. It makes me sad that he isn't here, that we won't be hearing his laughter, or even listening to him complain about the traffic on I-40. However, when I launch my kayak from Sand Island in Bluff, Utah, I will be flying a two-sided flag on the back of it in memory of my best friend and soul mate. My hope is that he and Thor will be standing high on Muley Point, one of his favorite places, looking down over the San Juan River and smiling.

The pictures below are what will be on each side of the flag I'm making. I've already printed the pictures on cloth. The only thing left to do is to spray them with a water sealant and then sew everything together and attach it to the dowel.

We're going to have a great time, but there will also be an empty spot by our campfires at night. I know he will be with us in spirit, but God how I wish he could be with us in body also.

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    So sorry about this Cindy. I think of you so often and the heartache you have had to endure.
    That is a wonderful idea with the flag!

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    1439 days ago
    I love the flag and the idea of having it with you while you are on the river. There will be an empty spot at the campfire but treasure the memories you have of earlier trips and begin to make new memories. I can't wait to see the beautiful pictures that you always take on your trips. Have a safe trip & enjoy the gorgeous scenery.
    1441 days ago
    I love the flag! I do believe Tommy will be making that trip, because I think you take him with you wherever you go. His memory is alive and well in your heart and soul. I am so sorry he will not be with you physically, but I'm so thankful you have so many wonderful memories of him.

    God bless you, my friend. Have a great trip.
    1442 days ago
    Oh wow, I have tears in my eyes, but they are good kind of tears. I LOVE your idea. A great way to honor your best friend. And you are so right, he will be there with you in spirit. So will Thor. I like the picture of Tommy, and the flag you put together!
    1443 days ago
    I'm not sure what is beyond this life but I refuse to believe that there isn't something, that when 'the end' comes, that's it. There has to be a reason for us living as long or short as we do, for how we live our lives, for the relationships we make, the impact we have on others and the ambitions and achievements we all develop. It cannot stop, just like that.

    I have not had a vast amount of tragedy in my life, mercifully, but because I believe that I WILL see my precious, departed dogs again one day, I thus believe that I will also see adored friends who have also gone 'next door'. That, therefore, means that they are 'hanging around us' still and watching our earthly lives and exploits. Thus it is that Tommy will be watching your expedition from some vantage point, willing you on to have a wonderful time, trying to transmit some sort of message that he is still with you but that you just can't see him in earthly form. I'm sure you will return having felt his presence.

    Have a wonderful time, he will be whispering to you through the bankside reeds and over the breeze, and I really hope you will feel the bonus of that in what promises to be a most exciting and fulfilling journey.

    1443 days ago
    A beautiful and meaningful tribute and so like you to think of him. Will be praying that all goes well on the trip and that you will find peace and contentment while remembering Tommy and Thor. emoticon
    1443 days ago
    What a lovely tribute! I'm sure he is so proud of you for going forward with your plans and he'll certainly be watching over you, with Thor by his side:)
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    1443 days ago
    What a great idea!

    Your trip will be special for many different reasons.
    1443 days ago
  • ODAT1117
    Big hugs..............

    I cannot imagine.........

    This might be an emotional trip down the river of life AND it will be well worth it. Listen for Tommy and Thor. I know you'll hear them and you'll see them. Paddle Paddle Paddle for the love of your life. :-)

    1444 days ago
    Yes, he and Thor will be watching over you!
    1444 days ago
    The flag is so beautiful! What a wonderful tribute to him! I believe he's going to be there in spirit, along with Thor, sending you all off and waiting for you when you get where he would pick you up. Life does such weird things to us sometimes and what we expected at one point in our journey ends up being different, or even a different journey. I've never lost a best friend/soul mate so I'm not going to tell you I know what it feels like. Even for every one who has the experience can be a little different for each one. But my thoughts and prayers are with you for a journey that will carry the memory of them and at the same time be a lot of fun for everyone involved!
    1444 days ago
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