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Monday, June 09, 2014

We were all with her when the final breath left her body. We cradled her body in our arms and kissed and cuddled her. We helped her mother cut locks of her hair to keep in memory. After she was dressed and laid out, I sat with her and told the story of Rebecca to the hospice nurse. I watched her change from looking like she was asleep to looking dead. We stood by as the men from the funeral home carried her downstairs and zipped her into a body bag (mercifully, just up to her chest while we were witnessing). We watched them drive away with her.

I still don't understand. Where did she go?

My heart is so broken.
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    1748 days ago
    So very sorry to read your last few entries. emoticon
    1748 days ago
    I have nothing to say to help. Know that I witness your pain and I am deeply touched.
    1748 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    I'm so sorry for the loss of Rebecca. emoticon
    Cancer is a horrible illness. My son, Nathan, had Testicular Cancer five years ago. He had three types of cancer cells and one was a very aggressive type. He had surgery and then five weeks later, they found cancer cells in his lymph nodes in his groin, so he had four rounds of chemotherapy, which took nearly five months since his white cell count would drop so low. He was so ill. But, when they told him he could go into the private room for his treatment he said "I won't go in that room, because that is the Dying Room." He just had his five year cat scan and blood tests last week and they were "clean." He works out daily and goes to Yoga classes, because he is determined to stay as fit and healthy as he can in case it does return. They told him with all the chemo and cat scans, he could have cancer develop again in his 40's, but he will be ready. He'll be 30 next month.
    My heart goes out to you.
    1748 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
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    1748 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/9/2014 1:23:59 AM
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