failing miserably

Sunday, June 08, 2014

That might sound like the beginning of a pity party, but honestly it's not. Just the truth.

The month of April I did really well. I had lost like 12 pounds in three weeks or something like that. I had one bad weekend and gained eight of it back.
That was a WTH moment if I ever had one. That started it all. Then we came into a little bit of money, nothing extravagant, but we could eat out and I could go to this grocery store and not stress about money for a while. It would not pay me to be rich...that is for sure.

How do I get away from this self destruction?


Anyway today I've done decent. A little over 1400 calories. That is a start I guess.

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    Michelle, you are going through one of the downs in many of the ups and downs of this crazy journey that we have to go through :-)....but you are an amazing inspiration to me and so many other people. You can do this...because you have done this! We are all here for you!!! - Beth
    1899 days ago
    An alternative to eating out: buy some premium fish or seafood for dinner at home. Then it's so easy to pig out, love it, and lose weight at the same time. You reminded me of seared yellow-fin tuna crusted in sesame seeds...
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    1902 days ago
    Listen sister, you are singing to the choir! I've been having a terrible time, ever since winter hit. When spring got here, I did a little better for a week or 2, then JUMPED off the wagon, AGAIN! Honestly, the MOST important thing, is that you keep fighting. Don't give up. I'm here for you.
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    1902 days ago
    No one thinks you are a failure because all of us struggle every day. I have said it to many people here, and I say it to myself almost daily, until you work through the brain weight, the physical weight is gonna continue to be there. Stay strong, blog, think about your feelings and how they relate to food and hunger, think about what sparked you before and spring off from there. You can do it!!

    1902 days ago
    You failed, yes, but miserably? You learned that for you there is a link between food limitations and financial limitations. Now you know and can move forward armed with that insight.
    1902 days ago
    You had a good day. Celebrate it! You drank the water. Celebrate it. You made any effort to move more. Celebrate it. The good feelings you generate by celebrating make you feel good. They can make you feel so good you want to feel more of that good so you make even more healthy choices. Celebrating feeds your Spark. Celebrating drives away doubt! Celebrating is essential to stay positive, energized and motivated.
    Just try it and you will see!
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    1902 days ago
    hey love.that is not just a start it is a great start.keep on keeping on and you will get there in the end emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1902 days ago
    Hey, it's good to see you blogging again. Did you think we wouldn't notice?! I for one emoticon
    Michelle, you've been such an inspiration to so many of us. If I were you, I'd start by reviewing your past blogs. You have an amazing story. Revisit it and identify what worked before. Is that the right place to start again? Or maybe there's some new motivation in the wings that you can draw upon. Whatever the case, your past experience proves to us all that you can accomplish amazing things.
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    1902 days ago
    It's so hard. I'm desperate to lose about 10 pounds, but I keep sabotaging myself. Today I did well at breakfast and lunch, but after my walk I binged on two small cupcakes and probably two ounces of snapea crisp things. Ugh! That was about 750 calories I did not need. So, I won't be surprised if my weight either hasn't budged or has gone up when I weigh in the morning. I don't know why I continue to do this to myself. I know I am worth much more than this and so are you. We can do this! One good decision at a time. We just need to make fewer of the bad ones. Great success to you!
    1902 days ago
  • LIZ0515
    Sorry you are having such a hard time. I get it..I've been there. I'm still working on this lifestyle change myself. I've brought myself to get into the habit of shopping in the parameter of the store first where the fresh fruits, veggies, meets, and dairy is and then working my way inward to canned veggies (that I do not need right away).

    I stray away from the frozen food section except for the stray bag of perogies (my kids love these) and maybe a frozen pizza once in a while. Frozen dinners (even the "diet" meals) are FULL of sodium and other things that are just not good for you.

    As of now, fast food is more of a treat for my family and I instead of a regular part of our diets. I have also replaced soda with sparkling flavored water. That has helped with the bloating.

    In past experiences, denying myself the occasional treat just made me crash and burn. Do treat yourself once in a while.

    It is hard. I know....hang in there and I hope this helps!
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