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Just a little moan...nothing to see here. ;)

Wednesday, June 04, 2014

Oh my, my. Umm....woke up at 5:30am and got up telling myself I WOULD get a work out in before all else....still sitting here at 10:30am. Just cannot find energy lately. Hating to post because feeling like a major WHINER.

Had a weird digestive issue over memorial day, think it was another fun diverticulitis attack. Made a bad mistake taking one of my sister ridiculously strong pain meds after a few days of building pain and promptly slept for 2 days in a row. Hada bout of hypochondria and decided by Friday to see my Dr. and ask for an EKG, since heart attacks in women can be so different and fatigue can be a symptom. Obviously, it was ok. Felt like I just needed 'clearance' and an ok to 'throw myself back into working out'...soooooo....no reason not to now. Was suprised I still 'only' weighed in at 160 at the dr's office...but clearly fat to muscle ratio is changing because I had to buy some 14 sized shorts. GRRR.

Feeling overwhelmed with chores as we have pretty much decided to move to Hawaii next year :::KNOCK ON WOOD AND GOD WILLNG::::With NO extra possesions outside clothes and such. This means I need to start clearing out a LOT of stuff. Also need to redouble efforst to rehome many of the foster animals that have lingered and on which I had resigned to just 'waiting it out' with them here. (THAT is the tallest order). But even more importantly, I need to focus on pre-applying for my mom's medicaid in the event she stays longer then currently covered in the nursing home. That is another big stressor as she is doing GREAT physically, pretty much back to how she was before we left on vacation and she fell.....but she is miserable and ADAMANT that she wants OUT....NOW. I go see her for a couple hours every evening (waiting until I don't have to argue with her about taking her out that day, as we have taken her on day trips home most Sundays). Have told her we needed another plan in place, because clearly just ONE person caring for her can't override her insistent stubborn nature, the result of which, is her getting up alone and doing things she shoudln't and thus getting hurt. Not sure how to get the stress off MY shoulders....other then not going to see her but that seems unnecessarily kind of cruel since she is just around the corner.

ANYWAY.....I know working out would help alleviate some of the stress, but all I want to do is go back to bed most days. Not sure how to recapture my 'mojo'. Definately need to spend more time on this site then wasting it on youtube or netflix!! Going to dig for motivation right now! Not giving up!

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  • MAPFARMS
    The 10 minute Challenge helped to motivate me. It was easy to tell myself that it was just 10 minute. I could do 10 minutes!!!! I usually kept going once I got started.
    1507 days ago
  • JEWELMAKER1
    It sounds like you are suffering from burn out. With all of your responsibilities weighing so heavily on you, its a small wonder. Maybe it would be good for you to try something new; a kickboxing class, jazzercise, a simple arts and crafts class. Something that gets you out side the house, away from your stress.

    I go through this too. Things will never get "good" with my son, just less bad. It makes me so tired and takes away my ambition to exercise. Worse yet, I eat to comfort myself and constantly have to review my goals to try to stay on track.

    Wishing you strength, energy and peace.

    Jackie
    1507 days ago
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