What's in a blog?
Tuesday, June 03, 2014
I see so many successful stories and cannot help but be inspired by them. Thoughts jolt through my head:
"I wish I could be successful in my weight-loss."
"I wish I could love myself like all these people."
The thoughts go on and on.
I had a sudden realization from all these thoughts! I only know of these success stories, because the people behind them documented their progress and results. I had another thought... What if I document my progress? and what if! I could motivate myself from them! Genius, if I do say so myself.
Everyday people are cutting themselves short and I am part of that mindset. I was in the therapist office the other day and started rambling on about how I hung out with the smart crowd even though I was not smart. Although that was not the point of the story I was about to tell my therapist, he actually interrupted me! "What makes you think you're not smart?", he snapped at me. I was lost for words. He continued and started rattling off achievements of mine and boasted to me about my vocabulary. He said, "I see a very smart girl indeed!"
Why could I not see this?
I put blinders on and admire others' lives but never my own. My therapist often reminds me that, our number 1 relationship in life... is ourselves.
So here I am world. My name is Amber. I have suffered from obesity, depression, and self-hatred. Most recently on top of all that I found out I have Attention Deficit Disorder. Get to know me why dontcha?