It's Official: My 2nd Rock Bottom
Friday, May 30, 2014
Yep, this blog is one big ol' pity party. You've been warned.
For the past 6 hours I have cried off and on, knowing that I've ultimately failed myself and have turned my back on my goals. Life got in the way and I let it completely destroy all of the effort I put into weight loss. I don't feel like I should be a SparkMotivator or even a success story because I don't feel like I am one. There isn't anything about my story that could motivate someone else to succeed because I certainly haven't! I'm coming to terms with the devastation (which I thought I worked through months ago already) and have a plan of action despite my not wanting to do a thing. After e-mailing back and forth with my doctor, she has so kindly referred me to the weight loss program at my local hospital. This is the same program that I started 3 years ago when I hit my 1st rock bottom, so I know it definitely works. It'll take a lot of my energy, but to me, it's worth it. As soon as I hear back from the program head, I'll let you all know when the program will officially start. I'm no longer able to wear my jeans which were a size 16. Ridiculous and oh so embarrassing.
Yes, I'm on depression medication.
Yes, I see a shrink often.