Choosing to Celebrate
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Today is an anniversary of sorts. Every year for the past 4 years I reflect on where I am, what I have learned and where I want to go. 4 years ago my entire emotional foundation was destroyed when I was betrayed and held against my will in a mental hospital for 25 days. It has been a long, dark road back to the light. People say time heals all wounds. I think it depends on how you spend your time. I have a certain amount of acceptance over the situation. Everyday i focus on what is within my control and what I can improve. This situation has without a doubt changed me, and my outlook on life. I am no longer the naive trusting person who took everything at face value. I have learned discernment, I have learned to trust my instincts. Today I'm putting down the rock. It's been long enough, heavy enough. I will not continue to drink emotional poison and carry the negative thoughts of my former therapist with me. She lacked integrity, ethics and experience. No amount of my mental energy will ever change the situation. It is what it is. For a long time I wanted, hoped for and wished for and apology and explanation. None of that matters anymore. Words without action is useless. I can either have peace OR the answer to the question of WHY. I choose peace. The reason why doesn't matter, it won't change anything.
Today I have clarity over my thoughts and emotions and that is a reason to celebrate :-)