Monday, May 19, 2014
I've been trying (I say trying but was I actually "trying" to lose weight for the past few months -- no). I've been struggling with my weight and always think about it but came up with excuses (although my first busy season as an auditor and being away from home 80% of the time being forced to eat out breakfast, lunch, and dinner I think was a little legitimate excuse haha). But March - present no excuses.
My husband and I are ready to have a child, but I have PCOS. Since I stopped the birth control pill I haven't had a period (only the withdraw after the pill) since January. I've taken 2 rounds of different medications to induce having one... but so far no luck. I have 1 more week left until I'd have to call the doctor again. I don't know if the failure of those medications was due to the PCOS or stress. Unfortunately during the first round we found out our dog had cancer. During the 2nd round we had to put him down. He was my absolute life. I was devastated. For the first few weeks since we found out he was diagnosed I cried every single day -- not the best for being stress free. And then we had to make the very hard decision and of course I was stressed to the max and so upset. I know stress can definitely mess with hormones, so I'm not sure if that is why this failed (or may fail in 1 week).
But anyway that was a side note haha. We really want to have a child and I absolutely need to lose weight. It will only help with the PCOS and when I get pregnant (hope - fingers crossed) it will be better with the pregnancy and also raising a child. I don't know what finally hit me but I'm ready. I knew the hardships of having a child before because I knew I've had PCOS for years, but it never really made a motivational effect before - nothing really did. I've always wanted and dreamed about being thin and healthy but nothing would make me not eat that ice cream or the french fries.
Now -- I'm ready. This may not be a huge deal to other people, but to me I did something that is absolutely HUGE in my world. I went to the grocery store and did not buy a single bad item - no "small" thing of ice cream, no candy bar at the checkout. No french fries or carbs. None of that. That is absolutely HUGE for me. I am determined.
I've done some research and my husband has been on this diet - the Low Carb High Fat diet. The research i've found says that its very good for people with PCOS. I love meat and cheese - so its awesome. Although I hate green veggies -- I wish I loved veggies as much as I love fruit. I know I will have to get some carbs because I also need high fiber - but I'll juts have to choose the good carbs for that.
I've made a big step so far. My next step is to see what I can do when I'm out and about or at family's house and have to eat there. I hope this motivation is there as well.
So far so good :)