Stress.. and can I deal?
Thursday, May 15, 2014
There as been soo much CRAP going on lately that's completely out of my control and its been very hard to deal with. Because of this I haven't been able to exercise as much as I had planned..
I did take action to fix this though. I've finished this semester and school so that will help (and found better ways to stay on top of my stuff for next semester so I wont get behind again), and I've actually put in my two weeks notice in at work.. been there for SOOO long and I really hate to do it, but there's only so many years someone can handle the bullsh!t that goes on there. But I will miss the friends I did make there.
Now all I have to do is secure another job and meraculously come up with $1500 to pay off everything I owe by the end of the month... sigh..
I'm taking it one day at a time. I have found some other means to help out so it may not happen as fast as the collectors want, but at least I can give them a few to see I'm trying.. I just hope they'll accept it.
I've smoked more cigarettes lately then I ever have before, and the only reason I have them is because I found some old W-M gift cards when we were cleaning out the house.. so its like their free. lol I've been without my meds for so long it seems, this is the only thing thats been holding me out. Though I did have a breakdown infront of EVERYONE at work.. customers were probably looking at me like I'm crazy.. and I just wanted to scream "Its because I am, they wont pay me enough to stay medicated" lol
Oh lord. I need some huge prayers please for anyone reading this. I'm so tired of my life right now. I'm so ready to give up. I just don't know what to do any more, its like nothing I do is ever good enough. I'm trying my hardest to make it thought, and do my best.. but I have NOTHING to show for it. Except more bills.