Tuesday, May 13, 2014
I've been in a funk for over a year. I have been hanging on week after week, day by day. Oh, how I would love to revisit the days when eating right and exercising seemed second nature. Get dressed, show up and sweat it out. Plan meals, grocery shop and measure.
I hit goal weight (130) in July 2012. I put 15 back on since then and I let it get to me psychologically. I began looking at myself as the fat girl again. And even though the shorts from last summer fit (snuggly) I found myself beating and torturing the same person who allowed success of losing 60 lbs to happen in the first place.
When I scaled back on exercise because I couldn't seem to find the right workout that kept me excited and motivated, my poor eating habits (which really weren't poor compared to how I ate before Spark) became a glaring fault that I couldn't hide. Snack time turned into another meal time and meal time no longer involved measuring or healthier substitutions.
Once I realized this glaring fault, I knew what needed to be learned about nutrition and feeding my body hadn't thoroughly been learned. I was successful but never really mastered. Now is my time to master nutrition for what my body needs to thrive.
I've set a new goal to lose the unwanted 15 and hit goal again on August 1. And no more beating and torturing the one who motivated me to lose the 60 and reach goal weight.