Saturday, May 10, 2014
O my goodness
Ok for 2 weeks I am trying to keep up with my own well being but it is hard.
I am so tired.
My husband was having an issue with his Asthma, and then he had a sinus infection and now this week he has a Viral/bacterial throat infection.
All for the last two nights he was up and down and bouncing like a flopping fish. I am so worn out I feel like I could sleep for a year.
I realized I have made many changes in the last few years this morning when I woke up an my husband was taking himself to the ER. I let him take himself because Kellie would have been home alone with no cell because she can't find hers.
I was trying to go back to sleep but I couldn't and then he called me to go pick him up at the ER because they gave him pain meds and they wouldn't release him until he had a ride home.
On the way to the car, I didn't realize he walked off in another direction, I went to my car and opened the passenger side door and turned around to see what was taking him so long and he was gone. He walked over to his car and he was driving himself home.
Nothing like making me do something for nothing.
And I decided to stop drinking coffee this past week. What a huge misjudgment in timing. Although I have figured out that I get a lot of comfort from my coffee.
My coffee gives me warm hugs, conversation that do not require me to hear someone's stupid comments, and strangely enough it work on me like speed.
with out my coffee I can't seem to think clearly, and I drop stuff, and walk into things, I am going to be full of bruises. I banged my hand on something today I can't remember what but I remember I banged it and my knuckles is all bruised. I can't believe how uncoordinated I am without my caffeine.
I also realized that since I haven't had any coffee I have been eating more.
that is a good thing for me but at the same time I still miss my coffee.
I warned my friends at work that they wouldn't like me with out my coffee and man are they finding out.
It was funny because the first day I gave up coffee my daughter and I went shopping and on the way home she stopped and bought me a coffee.
I said Am I that bad? she said No but I read your post on FB and I was afraid to call you. Yes I am that bad with out my coffee.
My friend from work was nice enough to buy me a Teavana tea system. It makes very good tea, and it was a thoughtful idea. I am trying so hard not to drink the coffee. It is everywhere.
Yesterday I took my coworker to lunch and to the movies for her Birthday.
My husband was home and not answering his phone. I was a little nervous because I would normaly have come home to take care of him. But I didn't.
I am feeling like that and today was a huge change for me. I am trying not to fall back on old habits.
I wanted to get to the gym today but at the same time I need to rest, I ended up running my errand's. And I am tired but I will survive.
Tomorrow is mothers day, I am hoping to get to dinner but if I don't that is ok too. My oldest daughter is going to her best friend/room mates graduation.
Well I hope everyone has a wonderful mothers day!