SHOCKING REVELATION...

I'm sitting in the van with my family, taking a 4 hour drive to visit my mom and surprise her for Mother's Day. Hubby and I are sitting here having random conversations while I play candy crush on my phone. He starts talking about how he is doing speed drills to get ready for his next half marathon. He had a friend are in a competition together. Who can lose more weight and who can run the race the fastest. Guys. Lol.

Anyway, he tells me that he's a few pounds down from the last time we talked about his weight. He doesn't have much to lose. Maybe only 15 pounds or so. And then he says to me, "Why don't you just drop a quick 50 pounds. You'd be so much happier at 250 than you are at 300. Just do it for yourself and for your health. Come on, you deserve it."

And I said, "I don't know about that..."

And then it hit me...

It was like I'd uncovered a secret I'd kept from myself this whole time. There are so many things that I fall short on in this life. Somehow I have accepted the idea that I DON'T deserve to be thinner and healthy and happy because of my shortcomings. And unfortunately, I don't know HOW to change that idea that I made myself believe...