Thursday, May 01, 2014
For the past two weeks I have been feeling very sick and lethargic. I am constantly nauseous, sick to my stomach, in pain, suffering from a great headache, or puking. I have no idea what is wrong or why this is happening.
But because of that I haven't been able to stay on track with my workouts and I can feel myself gaining back the weight. I haven't weighed myself, so I don't even know if I have actually gained any. But I look in the mirror and am disgusted by what I see. I am constantly focused on the fat I can feel clingy to my body. The other day I started bawling when with my boyfriend, because I couldn't stand my body being naked and exposed. It is causing so much pain in my life I cannot focus on anything else.
The only word I have to describe the last month is a struggle, and I just don't know what to do anymore.