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Wednesday, April 30, 2014

I'm having a tough day today.

It's been a rough week leading up to today, but I'm finally breaking down.

Everything with my ex and his illness, having to run out and pick up the dog. Now the dog is struggling to settle in. Mickey is snapping at the other dogs. I get they have to settle out a pecking order, but the stress of it all is starting to overwhelm me. Mostly because of the stress it's causing Hubby.

Anyhow, last night my tooth broke. I thought there was a problem with the filling, and was going to get it fixed after our holiday. It had me wondering about it for a few weeks, so I figured no biggie it can wait.

I guess not.

But not dentist here can see me for at least 3 weeks. It hurts. I'm scared to eat. The entire side of the tooth is gone, and there is no longer anything holding the filling in.

Besides, even if they could see me, I can't afford it. I already dipped into my savings to go and get my dog this weekend. I don't even have enough left to pay for dental work. That was my savings for the Alaska trip. Now with having Mickey here, I need to get him vaccinated again - about $150. I also need to pay for a kennel for him to stay while we're away - another $400 at least. More I'm thinking.

I don't have any benefits from work, so my dental is out of pocket.

My head is spinning today. I don't know if I can stop crying. I need to take the dogs for another walk today. Actually, I need to train for the upcoming half marathons.

How am I going to do that with dental pain?

I think I'm just going to crawl back into bed and cry the day away. Maybe find the strength to fight again tomorrow.
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  • PICKIE98
    I have been without health insurance since last December..I literally JUST re-applied an hour ago and got approved. I have Delta Dental for $80/yr for your entire household..,,not insurance, but a major discount on dental work.
    1449 days ago
    goodness, my heart is breaking. I can feel your pain through this blog. I wish I could help, but all I can do is pray for you - pray that God finds an answer for you! emoticon
    1451 days ago
  • GAL7288
    So sorry to hear about your struggles. emoticon It is reasonable to be overwhelmed with so much going on, but don't give up on yourself, perhaps a small walk will suffice to make you feel better? Maybe you can get help with covering your tooth expenses through your city's hospital board? Here in Houston we have a gold card through our country hospital district, it helps you depending on your income. What of someone can keep you dogs for your instead of putting them in a kennel? Stay strong! You can overcome this!
    1451 days ago
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